Heyllo friends,
there is a update on the Monday, September 8, 2008 on the list, hehe. click "here" Forgot to put in one thing la. Which is a pendrive which also i need a lot la. i don't need so many, just one will do. i know on christmas day i sure get about two or three or even none. Well i just need it la, i don't want to bring my ipod cable every where and is toublesome. But a pendrive is small and easy to carry around and it will be cool to have one =). Well i don't need so big or to small the gb space. Around 2gb to 4gb would be just fine. I do really need one to come to think of it. Hope i'll get it for christmas or birthday, hehe.
pendrive pals,
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
My Biggest Dream, Hope it be Real
Hello,
My dream or my vision or my real hope is to be a real successful basketball player in either in NBA or EURO ball. i really want to be a basketball player to play for a basketball team. I really do like the game a lot. Always in the search to be better in my game. Always learning of great players from the past and present. I don't know why i like the same sport as my dad which is squash. I do play squash but is seems that it doesn't stream down in my blood. Basketball flow into my veins and always had that burning desire to play basketball.
I know i'm sometimes play emotionally at the basketball at times. Cause i desire to be better at the game. It will be cool, if i get the chance to play in NBA for a basketball team. Imagine, someone you know has gone to the NBA and you know him personally. People will be dieing to know how he is, what he likes, and questions will flow about that person. And the money that NBA gives is just wonderful. If i become a NBA player, hope i will be someone, who can influence the world. A malaysian christian basketball player playing in this team doing some amazing numbers on his record. i know i can't be as great as jordan or kobe or lebron or larry bird or any other NBA player. But someone with great passion for the game.
And the money, i know money is good but i think that i don't need all the money i earn. I can give it to my church for greater good for God's kingdom. The money to help so many lifes to be save their souls for Jesus Christ. Maybe i just have 1/4 of my earning the 3/4 for God's kingdom, if i get to join the NBA or if i'm earning big loads of money. Then maybe make a christian NBA basketball team to go around using basketball to reach out the world, telling Jesus Christ as who He is and the wonderful things that Jesus Christ can Give. Wouldn't it be great.
Everyday i have been dreaming about this. Since the day i first play basketball, i have been dreaming about it. I can imagine the announcer calling me into the basketball court. "Now, this guy, who is from all the way from Asia, standing at 6feet tall, playing the point guard position. Many have nickname him 'flameOn', he brings a firely passion into the game. Now presenting, wearing the number 8 jersey, Joooooeeeelllllll PPPPPaauuuulllllll"......music play. Seeing the crowd as i slow jog in, all standing up, cheering for me. Feeling so electrify and the burn. Give the crowd a good, well deserve game. Commenters saying like "Wow this guys is one amazing fella. He is from malaysia and everyday he says than he train hard and then he came here to actually to study but one of the NBA scouts saw how he play and he was blown away of how this guy, Joel plays in college". "And quickly sign he on to a NBA contact". "Well, i guess he is a role model and a pioneer for kids all over the world especially Malaysia". "i think many NBA scouts are going to head down to South East Asia to scout on new talent to bring into the NBA". "He really put Malaysia on the Map". "And you know what buddy", "what", "he doesn't just play basketball, he helps full time in churchs, bring someone that is influencing people to follow Christ". "He is one strong believer in Christ, well buddy i think i want to be a christian too, is not because of him but he has show how God is wonderful to many people lifes". "Yea, you are right buddy" and so on so on so on. I think it would be cool.
I know many people of you guys and even my parents say i can't make it. Saying like NBA is a Blackman sport is not for you Yellowman. They will outrun you, out play you, out jump you, and etc. You have to be at least 6'2 feet tall to play basketball. You can't dunk. So much Negativesness. No wonder people are narrow minded. And just full of negativeness. I have just block all this thoughts and just move on as God leads me. If God really wants me there, He will provide the way. I know many also have encourage me on this. But yet again, is all God decision which i also must make. Well is my dream, my vision. =)
Every night i can just hear the people cheering, seeing people getting save, and lives change. i see me doing like 17.3 points per game, 2.3 steals per game, 2.9 rebounds per game, 6.4 assist per game. i know is not amazing numbers. But is something realistic. I wish some NBA scout would be reading this post and he will fly down here to search for me and ask me to show him some moves that i know, and whether i would able to play the NBA. I will be praying for it.
Dear NBA scout, if you are reading this post, feel free to contact me at zenderzous@yahoo.com to make arrangements to meet. Don't try to fake me out. If you cheat me, God will know and God will never forget. God bless
Yours sincerely,
My dream or my vision or my real hope is to be a real successful basketball player in either in NBA or EURO ball. i really want to be a basketball player to play for a basketball team. I really do like the game a lot. Always in the search to be better in my game. Always learning of great players from the past and present. I don't know why i like the same sport as my dad which is squash. I do play squash but is seems that it doesn't stream down in my blood. Basketball flow into my veins and always had that burning desire to play basketball.
I know i'm sometimes play emotionally at the basketball at times. Cause i desire to be better at the game. It will be cool, if i get the chance to play in NBA for a basketball team. Imagine, someone you know has gone to the NBA and you know him personally. People will be dieing to know how he is, what he likes, and questions will flow about that person. And the money that NBA gives is just wonderful. If i become a NBA player, hope i will be someone, who can influence the world. A malaysian christian basketball player playing in this team doing some amazing numbers on his record. i know i can't be as great as jordan or kobe or lebron or larry bird or any other NBA player. But someone with great passion for the game.
And the money, i know money is good but i think that i don't need all the money i earn. I can give it to my church for greater good for God's kingdom. The money to help so many lifes to be save their souls for Jesus Christ. Maybe i just have 1/4 of my earning the 3/4 for God's kingdom, if i get to join the NBA or if i'm earning big loads of money. Then maybe make a christian NBA basketball team to go around using basketball to reach out the world, telling Jesus Christ as who He is and the wonderful things that Jesus Christ can Give. Wouldn't it be great.
Everyday i have been dreaming about this. Since the day i first play basketball, i have been dreaming about it. I can imagine the announcer calling me into the basketball court. "Now, this guy, who is from all the way from Asia, standing at 6feet tall, playing the point guard position. Many have nickname him 'flameOn', he brings a firely passion into the game. Now presenting, wearing the number 8 jersey, Joooooeeeelllllll PPPPPaauuuulllllll"......music play. Seeing the crowd as i slow jog in, all standing up, cheering for me. Feeling so electrify and the burn. Give the crowd a good, well deserve game. Commenters saying like "Wow this guys is one amazing fella. He is from malaysia and everyday he says than he train hard and then he came here to actually to study but one of the NBA scouts saw how he play and he was blown away of how this guy, Joel plays in college". "And quickly sign he on to a NBA contact". "Well, i guess he is a role model and a pioneer for kids all over the world especially Malaysia". "i think many NBA scouts are going to head down to South East Asia to scout on new talent to bring into the NBA". "He really put Malaysia on the Map". "And you know what buddy", "what", "he doesn't just play basketball, he helps full time in churchs, bring someone that is influencing people to follow Christ". "He is one strong believer in Christ, well buddy i think i want to be a christian too, is not because of him but he has show how God is wonderful to many people lifes". "Yea, you are right buddy" and so on so on so on. I think it would be cool.
I know many people of you guys and even my parents say i can't make it. Saying like NBA is a Blackman sport is not for you Yellowman. They will outrun you, out play you, out jump you, and etc. You have to be at least 6'2 feet tall to play basketball. You can't dunk. So much Negativesness. No wonder people are narrow minded. And just full of negativeness. I have just block all this thoughts and just move on as God leads me. If God really wants me there, He will provide the way. I know many also have encourage me on this. But yet again, is all God decision which i also must make. Well is my dream, my vision. =)
Every night i can just hear the people cheering, seeing people getting save, and lives change. i see me doing like 17.3 points per game, 2.3 steals per game, 2.9 rebounds per game, 6.4 assist per game. i know is not amazing numbers. But is something realistic. I wish some NBA scout would be reading this post and he will fly down here to search for me and ask me to show him some moves that i know, and whether i would able to play the NBA. I will be praying for it.
Dear NBA scout, if you are reading this post, feel free to contact me at zenderzous@yahoo.com to make arrangements to meet. Don't try to fake me out. If you cheat me, God will know and God will never forget. God bless
Yours sincerely,
Monday, September 8, 2008
The Wish List.
Hello,
Ok, i know that i have post it before but this is going according and in order of what i want. 1 as the most i want and so on so on. So here it comes....
1. A new handphone
-Sony Ericsson Z710i
-Iphone 3G
2. 1 Terabyte Harddrive or 250gb or 320gb harddrive...prefer to have western digital or a pendrive la actually i need one pendrive. well you can get me a 2gb-4gb should be fine. need one
3. A new wallet - i don't want with velcro wallets. i want it flip and flat type. little bit higher than pasar malam please.
4. Nike travelling Bag
5. Zippo lighter. which is lasered with 'Joel Paul the Addict' slightly at the bottom and at the top 'Flame On!'
6. 2 new basketball, i don't mind Nike 3000 or Spalding or Molten
7. Nike short pants - my waist is about 26 -29 cm around. As long it just cover my knees.
8. Nike long pants - same but long la
9. N'sync greatest hits
10. Toy sword(like Jay's one)
11. Grimlock - i want the old version, which is blue. don't know, click on this Grimlockold
12. Nike shoes
-basketball: zoom bb, hypedunk, ultraflight
13. Nike swoosh collar shirts: Bright blue, orange
14. Nike shirt with the word: Why drive, When you can Fly
15. A watch: Swatch will do. simple la. or even better Nike watch
16. will the rest in the other post which is 'clickthisla'
So i want the handphone the most la, and the rest is cool if you get me one of them. i know nearly everything is Nike, i know i know. So here is not so Nike list, not according by order
1. collar shirts - i like one color shirt or two color shirts like have stripe.
2. Short pants
3. A sketch book
4. A big art block book
5. Color pencils like 100 over color pencils
6. Spray paint, any color la prefer orange, neon colors,
7. bandannas
8. Worship cds - as long is not planetshakes, is fine
9. Gossip girl book. i got the tv series but no book. =)
10. travelling bag which can shoulder carry. not bag pack. Something like this, example is like those tennis players, when they walk into the court, they have two bags, one is the racketbag and the other is to keep whatever is inside the other bag.
11. Pendrive, seriously need one. either a 2gb-4gb pendrive i need, hehe
i think it should be all...but the most i want is the handphone...i cannot tahan my phone already is just to......don't know what to say la. if only i'm rich and can afford anything would be great.
smiles,
Ok, i know that i have post it before but this is going according and in order of what i want. 1 as the most i want and so on so on. So here it comes....
1. A new handphone
-Sony Ericsson Z710i
-Iphone 3G
2. 1 Terabyte Harddrive or 250gb or 320gb harddrive...prefer to have western digital or a pendrive la actually i need one pendrive. well you can get me a 2gb-4gb should be fine. need one
3. A new wallet - i don't want with velcro wallets. i want it flip and flat type. little bit higher than pasar malam please.
4. Nike travelling Bag
5. Zippo lighter. which is lasered with 'Joel Paul the Addict' slightly at the bottom and at the top 'Flame On!'
6. 2 new basketball, i don't mind Nike 3000 or Spalding or Molten
7. Nike short pants - my waist is about 26 -29 cm around. As long it just cover my knees.
8. Nike long pants - same but long la
9. N'sync greatest hits
10. Toy sword(like Jay's one)
11. Grimlock - i want the old version, which is blue. don't know, click on this Grimlockold
12. Nike shoes
-basketball: zoom bb, hypedunk, ultraflight
13. Nike swoosh collar shirts: Bright blue, orange
14. Nike shirt with the word: Why drive, When you can Fly
15. A watch: Swatch will do. simple la. or even better Nike watch
16. will the rest in the other post which is 'clickthisla'
So i want the handphone the most la, and the rest is cool if you get me one of them. i know nearly everything is Nike, i know i know. So here is not so Nike list, not according by order
1. collar shirts - i like one color shirt or two color shirts like have stripe.
2. Short pants
3. A sketch book
4. A big art block book
5. Color pencils like 100 over color pencils
6. Spray paint, any color la prefer orange, neon colors,
7. bandannas
8. Worship cds - as long is not planetshakes, is fine
9. Gossip girl book. i got the tv series but no book. =)
10. travelling bag which can shoulder carry. not bag pack. Something like this, example is like those tennis players, when they walk into the court, they have two bags, one is the racketbag and the other is to keep whatever is inside the other bag.
11. Pendrive, seriously need one. either a 2gb-4gb pendrive i need, hehe
i think it should be all...but the most i want is the handphone...i cannot tahan my phone already is just to......don't know what to say la. if only i'm rich and can afford anything would be great.
smiles,
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Motion City Sountrack
This is a song from Motion City Soundtrack which is called Fell In Love Without you
Last night I fell in love without you.
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn.
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call, "in love."
Last night I fell in love without you.
The Coup De Grace that set me off would have made for decent fiction.
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call, "in love."
Last night I fell in love without you.
The stars at night aren't as big and bright as you make them out to be.
And every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
In memory of when we used to call it: "love."
What a song, is just...can't explain la.
dots dots dots,
dots dots dots,
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Only Time will Tell
Heyo people,
is been nearly two years of my life Gone. But none really gone, just more of bumming. i have to say that this two years have been a lot of surprises for me. I think God has mold me really hard till i'm quite sensitive towards Him. i believe that God is directing my paths in what He wants me to do for Him. Is hard to explain to you fellas. Two years was also quite 'stress' for me. (i know many of you must be saying know 'Joel stress, BULLSHIT!!!) wait la, i haven't finish my lines. 'Stress' because i need to get into a school quick. And i'm being to get quite sick with people saying 'So when are you going to US' or 'Are you in College?'. i did my best to get into college. But i can't cause is always not enough credits. Not enough credits in what i want to study in. which is very 'stressful'
Sometime i been think, what happens if i don't get into a school which means i have to go into ministry school. And be the youngest pastor to come out with PHD in ministry. (i do not want to this cause is not calling yet for me and i believe He will come me into it when He thinks i'm ready for it). But to think of it i won't get even expose to the worldly world, where people will toughed me up. And i can't get good advise about how they should live their lifes. So that is one of the bad things of being a young pastor. So How?
Many has tell me to study here but here don't have my course. Then people say study in Australia, then i'll say i'll think about it. Then people say study ADP or AUP, and i say yeap will do that but i try and they say not enough credits cause all ADP or AUp courses will accept people with the minimun of five credits. Hiaz...sometime i think that i could do better in school. If only i was a smart boy, if only, if only, if only can go on forever. I wish that money could drop from the sky like rain everyday. can't take it la. Hope things can become easy for me. Seeing every one growing up and soon or later i'm going to be left behind and my world be small and lonely, luckyly that i'm a christian, people that care for each and other. In this two years i thought of ******G *****f but God stop me. i feel so useless, i'm only useful in church. The things i want to study is so hard to find here or that school is just to expensive. So what i want to study
1.Kinesiology(sport all in this department)
2.interior design
3.Architecture
4.sound engieering
5.carpenter
6.computers(i don't really know much in computers)
7.this is really the last resort, Ministry.
So much perssure is on me now, i'm beginning to feel it all over again. i know i have told to many of you that i already got a place in a University in Virginia in USA. But is only study probation. Which is good and bad at the same time. Cause the bad part first, which is i fail then i'm going to fly back here and everyone is going to step on me. (i know many of you won't). the Good, if i pass i will have bright future ahead of me. i will have many sholarships waiting and i will definitely have a great time there. BUT see there is a big BUT. BUT my parents want me to study here as like a study probation thingy and then transfer there. So my parents are making a big HUHA over it, ask the Uni in US to give a permission letter to study here and hopefully the credits are transferable. Another big HUHA is to study back into school again to get 5 credits again. which i'm like **** emo about it. What to do if i have only 4 credits. Sometime i just want to ***l *****f. If only, if only, if only.....stress la. Many say pray, yea pray, pray but no action also problem still there maybe just less. If God wants me to go US and study there, then the way there should be fine. If God wants me there, then i'll go. Life is hard. And hard gets going.
Sometimes i feel that my ******s should help me financially, don't need to pay all just help out. somtimes i wish education should come free where people are just willing to teach one and other.
like last time, where people just teach each other like internship. Like if you need to know how to repair shoes, so you go to a shoe maker, but in return you must teach something to the shoe maker, something that you know very well. I wish that education would be easy. Like if you want to study that course, is ok as long you have the money to pay the course, no need to look at your grades. If someone is instersted in something, he would study hard for it and i believe that person would make a differents in whatever department he studys on. The education system shouldn't look at your highschool grades in order for you to get into the course. it should be like from kindergarten to primary school to highschool to college to university. In the end we all going to work. So why from highschool to college, where people need to see your results whether you are good to study in this course. Is just plain BULLSHIT. Education is something that is easy for people to study.
i'm just stress la, hate this world, you can't even offer me anything back that is worth living. No, thank you for air you give me, in the end you just pollute it again. No, thanks for the water, in the end is also as much polluted. World you have nothing to offer me, Only one person can which is GOD. He is the only person i can only rely on. Only person i trust. Only person to have been so faithful to me. World you are just rubbish. You are not helping the people, is always you, you, you.
dieing here,
is been nearly two years of my life Gone. But none really gone, just more of bumming. i have to say that this two years have been a lot of surprises for me. I think God has mold me really hard till i'm quite sensitive towards Him. i believe that God is directing my paths in what He wants me to do for Him. Is hard to explain to you fellas. Two years was also quite 'stress' for me. (i know many of you must be saying know 'Joel stress, BULLSHIT!!!) wait la, i haven't finish my lines. 'Stress' because i need to get into a school quick. And i'm being to get quite sick with people saying 'So when are you going to US' or 'Are you in College?'. i did my best to get into college. But i can't cause is always not enough credits. Not enough credits in what i want to study in. which is very 'stressful'
Sometime i been think, what happens if i don't get into a school which means i have to go into ministry school. And be the youngest pastor to come out with PHD in ministry. (i do not want to this cause is not calling yet for me and i believe He will come me into it when He thinks i'm ready for it). But to think of it i won't get even expose to the worldly world, where people will toughed me up. And i can't get good advise about how they should live their lifes. So that is one of the bad things of being a young pastor. So How?
Many has tell me to study here but here don't have my course. Then people say study in Australia, then i'll say i'll think about it. Then people say study ADP or AUP, and i say yeap will do that but i try and they say not enough credits cause all ADP or AUp courses will accept people with the minimun of five credits. Hiaz...sometime i think that i could do better in school. If only i was a smart boy, if only, if only, if only can go on forever. I wish that money could drop from the sky like rain everyday. can't take it la. Hope things can become easy for me. Seeing every one growing up and soon or later i'm going to be left behind and my world be small and lonely, luckyly that i'm a christian, people that care for each and other. In this two years i thought of ******G *****f but God stop me. i feel so useless, i'm only useful in church. The things i want to study is so hard to find here or that school is just to expensive. So what i want to study
1.Kinesiology(sport all in this department)
2.interior design
3.Architecture
4.sound engieering
5.carpenter
6.computers(i don't really know much in computers)
7.this is really the last resort, Ministry.
So much perssure is on me now, i'm beginning to feel it all over again. i know i have told to many of you that i already got a place in a University in Virginia in USA. But is only study probation. Which is good and bad at the same time. Cause the bad part first, which is i fail then i'm going to fly back here and everyone is going to step on me. (i know many of you won't). the Good, if i pass i will have bright future ahead of me. i will have many sholarships waiting and i will definitely have a great time there. BUT see there is a big BUT. BUT my parents want me to study here as like a study probation thingy and then transfer there. So my parents are making a big HUHA over it, ask the Uni in US to give a permission letter to study here and hopefully the credits are transferable. Another big HUHA is to study back into school again to get 5 credits again. which i'm like **** emo about it. What to do if i have only 4 credits. Sometime i just want to ***l *****f. If only, if only, if only.....stress la. Many say pray, yea pray, pray but no action also problem still there maybe just less. If God wants me to go US and study there, then the way there should be fine. If God wants me there, then i'll go. Life is hard. And hard gets going.
Sometimes i feel that my ******s should help me financially, don't need to pay all just help out. somtimes i wish education should come free where people are just willing to teach one and other.
like last time, where people just teach each other like internship. Like if you need to know how to repair shoes, so you go to a shoe maker, but in return you must teach something to the shoe maker, something that you know very well. I wish that education would be easy. Like if you want to study that course, is ok as long you have the money to pay the course, no need to look at your grades. If someone is instersted in something, he would study hard for it and i believe that person would make a differents in whatever department he studys on. The education system shouldn't look at your highschool grades in order for you to get into the course. it should be like from kindergarten to primary school to highschool to college to university. In the end we all going to work. So why from highschool to college, where people need to see your results whether you are good to study in this course. Is just plain BULLSHIT. Education is something that is easy for people to study.
i'm just stress la, hate this world, you can't even offer me anything back that is worth living. No, thank you for air you give me, in the end you just pollute it again. No, thanks for the water, in the end is also as much polluted. World you have nothing to offer me, Only one person can which is GOD. He is the only person i can only rely on. Only person i trust. Only person to have been so faithful to me. World you are just rubbish. You are not helping the people, is always you, you, you.
dieing here,
Friday, September 5, 2008
H-O-R-S-E
i saw this videoLebron got own by a normal local person
David Kalb vs Lebron james
AT A GAME OF HORSE
Yea now i know
David Kalb vs Lebron james
AT A GAME OF HORSE
Yea now i know
Thursday, September 4, 2008
New Project
Hi all,
Planing to start a new art project soon. Hope will be cool. What i'm planing to do is use spray print and maybe a little of water paint. Going to use a big board. Colors? will be...haven't thought of it yet. maybe going for random colors. What i'm drawing? is something more abstract but inside the abstract there is a lot of thought behind it. So it will be something interesting. Hope it can be complicated but at the same time simple. hmm...challenging to the mind.
Planing to start a new art project soon. Hope will be cool. What i'm planing to do is use spray print and maybe a little of water paint. Going to use a big board. Colors? will be...haven't thought of it yet. maybe going for random colors. What i'm drawing? is something more abstract but inside the abstract there is a lot of thought behind it. So it will be something interesting. Hope it can be complicated but at the same time simple. hmm...challenging to the mind.
i think my colors are:
1.black
2.red
3.orange
4.blue
5.neon yellow or orange
6. metallic black
7.purple
8.white
the board color will be either
1.black
2.cream
3.dark blue(might go for this)
Art, how i miss you. you shall be abstract
1.black
2.red
3.orange
4.blue
5.neon yellow or orange
6. metallic black
7.purple
8.white
the board color will be either
1.black
2.cream
3.dark blue(might go for this)
Art, how i miss you. you shall be abstract
yours artfully,
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