It Burns.

Heyo,

Today i had a rude awakening the sound of my trusty little cellphone, the sony ericsson T610, beeping away with my ring tone X-men theme song at 10.3am. Hearing a sweet voice of a aunt asking me whether i'm awake. Well pretty much a awake by my phone ringing and vibrating away. So that ask me to awake up and come to church to open the church, cause no at that time had no key to church, to help bring tables to City Harvest for Shaohen wedding. Horrible. And yes, being me i would hardly say no. So i woke up, took a quick shower and rush to church with my big powerful van.

So bring the tables to City Harvest was ok la. But to my amaze, no one from City Harvest help us to take down the tables from my van and none of them help set up the area for the food. Hmm....must be no bondservants in that church, hehe. sorry. I was really tired cause yesterday i slept really late again. So i have to put up a happy face and slowly walk away to Medan/Rock Cafe for breakfast with Zach Siow.

In the end, i guess Shaohen just couldn't remember me. But i just couldn't be careless. I just don't like people a member of the church leaving to another church cause of whatever reason. God is God. So i went they finish i quickly get all the tables and put it back in church and went straight to Pyramid to see Daniel, Esther and Carmen. It is to help Daniel to find a good looking shirt to wear for choir. Just see him on this sunday. So after buying the shirt, we went walking around to shop for people for Christmas. So we know what to buy now and hope no one else buys it for that person. Anyway, the highlight in Pyramid was when we had to walk through this place of hair standing moment to go to the digital area, where we have to walk through Asian Avenue. And we pass by inside this creepy place a shop selling so weird stuff. like shocking people with those shocking pen or lighter and so on. So me being curious of this interesting lighter in that store. So i thought i know how the fire was going to come out and it turns out the fire i thought is going to come out of the other end, ends up buring my fourth finger. it was bloodly frecking painful. I couldn't tahan and we didn't eat lunch somemore. So we rush to McD for lunch and i quickly put my finger inside my coke drink. To cool it off. It is so painful that the pain is so intense. Cannot tahan. Grrr....Now i got a blister on my finger. Hate Shit that happens.

Then somemore after Pyramid shopping going for basketball. with a injured finger to play ball is not funny. is floaping painful. i think i got a second degree burn...i check it in a medical book i have at home. So i have to put my finger in really really cold water for 10 mins. And have to put Aleo Vera on blister. I think today is some what fun day la. after basketball had a great time in murni, where our friend Sze Jiun spent dinner on us. Which is a good thing that he has done. Well also had a small talk to Sze Jiun on responsibility. Cause he left his wallet at the basketball court and i was at Zach Mok house ready to do Murni. So i and him had to go to TP to get his wallet. Anyway, i'm happy that he spent on us la. thanks Sze Jiun.

We had a talk about Pokemon, i didn't play Pokemon at all, didn't play the card or the gameboy. The only think i know is Pikachu and the Pokemon movie. So i'm going to take my left now. Get ready for sunday church.

New experiences,

Back to Fundamentals

Hey,

So today was somewhat a great day. i had a very late night sleep. i slept at 5am, you know why, so watching movies. hehe...so i woke up around 2pm today and had a weird headache. Anyway, i shower and went for lunch and watch some tv. And tv today had quite some interesting on apparently. I watch like Oprah(i know, why JOEL!) and mythbusters and some movies. But the more insideful show i watch today was mythbusters. The show was showing about whether a normal citizen could fly a aeroplane without any experiences and of course with help from the flight tower on ground control. And the answer is YES. it is plausible that we can fly planes with help from ground control. But this is very unlikely to happen cause no way that the pilot and the co-pilot end up dead or something wrong with them. if it happens also there is a Marshal on board the plane which Marshal also fly the plane. But is cool that they prove that a normal person without any experiences can fly a plane porvided there is a helping person on ground control to guide you through it.

Anyway, my day didn't end up just like that. i was preparing Word for my lifegroup today. And was thinking through what to say to them. I know that i sat down with Jay to discuss what topic to discuss on. So i pick Acts 2:40-47. Which i'm glad that i pick it. Cause we need to remember why we meet as a lifegroup every friday night at 830pm. After think a lot, i realize that it is easy to give Word. My Word or the Word of God that i got is simple, which comes down to just 5p. The 5P is Peach, Prayer, Power, Provide, Praise. and these 5P all put together as two main purpose which is edification and outreach.
Acts 2:40-41, tells us that many people wanted to follow the apostles and are hungry for more. And Peter gave it to them, why peach? i mean not that we should just blare out to people, telling them that they should receive Christ on the spot. Peach as it is a live life in life. Let our talk and action be messages of life to people around us. This peaching is like planting a seed into life around us. So let peach for God. Peaching is a form of outreach. Lets plants seeds
Acts 2:42, tell us that they were devoted to God and they pray daily. Prayer is powerful weapon forge from our God. to have marvelous communication with God to help us in your lifes. Is a form of edification. When all things are dark and evil, look upon Jesus as the source of to edify us. And prayer is also watering the seed we planted. Lets pray
Acts 2:43, tell us that when we pray, God will surely give us power. Power to use for His glory. Power to tell the world that Jesus is real. the people in the bible were see wonders and signs done by the apostles and them. Power is like the sun that is given to shine on the plant to grow to a big tree. Wonder and signs doesn't mean that God enables us to fly or walk on water or to change the weather. But power to change lifes and believe hopefully to heal too. Power which is the Holy Spirit working in us to help others around us. So Flame On!
Acts 2:44-45, tell us that they had everything in common and 45 tell us they sold everything. Which means they Provide. Provide. They had everything in common which means they teach each other, they tell each other secrets with one and other. They are transparent with one and other. They help each other. They provide whatever need, they need. To be strong as one big fortress for God. When one is down, they build each other up. Time of edifying. The seed that became a big tree, now growing fruits. Cause of the fellowship, the person mixes with. He learns to have a powerful relationship with Jesus. I'm not saying also that we must sell our stuff. No, that is God's bless upon us. For us modern time, it is offering. So lets us Provide each other with what we need for God's kingdom.
And finally Acts 2:46-47, tell us about them praising God for what they done in their lives. How that God gave them what they needed and even blessing them. We should praise Him daily, thank Him for what He has done. And i believe there will be a time that God will bless us with numbers daily to the church.
So Peach, Prayer, Power, Provide, Praise combine it and it comes out to be two items which is Edification and Outreach. Let us be gear up. Take on our cross and follow Jesus. 1 John 1:7, read it. Let us be commited to Jesus as He is already commited for us.

Sincerely,

Movie Day

Hello everyone,

Today was a great day. I watch like severe movies today. And is all old shows and some of you might think is a stupid show or lame show or whatever. But i enjoy watching them anyway. So the movies i watch today are,

1. Click
2. The Bone Collector
3. Die Hard 4.0
4. John Tucker Must Die
5. Havoc
6. Speed Racer
7. Bee Movie
8. Matrix 1
9. The Untouchables

yea 8 shows. Wanted to watch more movies. But i couldn't cause i was to sleepy. I didn't have a lot a things to do today, went to jay's place for awhile to do the some Word discussion on how i should give Word for this friday. and went to Zach house to collect the YC teaser stuff for achieving. And doing some designs for our YC visitors card. But today i wanted to be a day just for movies and i can say that i'm deeply satisfied. But not all the shows i saw was really i want to watch but i'm happy to watch those movies. More movie days to come

Lovely,

Just A Thought

Hi all,

Today was just some what great. Woke up to train my jump. then went for lunch, watch severe movies then play basketball in the evening and chat with people online on msn. Anyway, today had a thought run through my head and it hit me when i talk to Joshua, my friend on something. And that something is quite a famous game, created many many years ago. That game is chess. Yea, chess, i not really a good player at chess. Cause i can't remember all the moves to counter your opponent. Anyway, we were laughing on things that you couldn't do chess like 4 player chess and how it might be so troublesome to play 4 player all free for all.
But i found out in the internet that there is a four player chess game. Just that is not played world-wide. I can't really explain to you, so i show you the game.

http://www.boardgamegeek.com/game/2173

This a 3 person chess set

i have no idea how to play this four or three player chess game. Maybe there are new rules or something. So this really blow my mind away la. hehe,

Kookou,

You Are Coke

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Manchester Orchestra

I Can Feel A Hot One

I could feel a hot one taking me down
For a moment, I could feel the force
Fainted to the point of tears
And you were holding on to make a point
What's the point?

I'm but a clean man, stable and alone man
Make it so I won't have to try
The faces always stay the same
So I face the fact that I'm just fine
I said that I'm just fine

I remember, head down,
After you had found out
Manna is a hell of a drug
And I need a little more, I think
Because enough is never quite enough
What's enough?

I took it like a grown man crying on the pavement
Hoping you would show your face
But I haven't heard a thing you've said
In at least a couple hundred days
What'd you say?

I was in the front seat, shaking it out
And I was asking if you felt alright
I never want to hear the truth
I want to hear your voice, it sounded fine
My voice, it sounded fine

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down
And for the moment, I would sleep alright
I'm ? with a selfish fear
To keep me up another restless night
Another restless night

The blood was dry, it was sober
The feeling of audible cracks
And I could tell it was over
From the curtains that hung from your neck

And I realized that then you were perfect
And my teeth ripping out of my head
And it looked like a painting I once knew
Back when my thoughts weren't entirely intact

To pray for what I thought were angels
Ended up being ambulances
And the Lord showed me dreams of my daughter
She was crying inside your stomach

And I felt love again

Down Hill...

Hey,

Looks like Joel Paul Toh is heading a down hill super low power. I don't know why. Maybe is just me. i see many people in my life have come and gone so fast. People around has see me as the person from the past. I have become no power.

What am i to you now?
What have i done wrong?
Are you pointing fingers at me?

I think people in my life have just lost their inspiration to me. Their fire is at medium. Some thing is not right la. I think i'm beginning to think to run away. Run away where? I don't know. Just run away. I have become a nobody to you. I have die in each of every ones hearts. i have become a shadow of the past. People are not seeing me anymore. What better thing to do than run away. Run away far far far away. Where people cannot contact me, where people are new. As i come to see now that i'm not a role model to others. I'm not a person who has change anyones lives. Lucky me that i'm a background person. i hide in the background, doing the work behind the scene. I think i just want to run away now. run away. My heart is broken. Love is shall not on theses humans. Only God i shall love. Take me home God. i want to leave this planet fast. i have no use to these humans anymore. they have suck me dry already and left me to die. Take me home. Take me home.

crying,

...

Hi,

I got nothing much to post for today. Didn't do much today, just went shopping with mom and dad and then later come back home just sleep some more. That is my day for monday. Maybe tomorrow i will wake up early to train my basketball skills. 730am it will be. Or maybe i just get my project going. Or maybe just call some people up and ask them how they are doing to encourage others. Or just be emo tomorrow.
My days are number. People all around seems to drift away from me. is like me as a fish in a lonely pond and went i move into the crowd, they all disperse. i don't know why. Maybe is just me. Is like everyday i walk a lonely road. Maybe is just me. Is it that i'm to direct with people that people are scare to talk to me cause it might offend you and hurt your feelings? I think i just have end up with no friends. Only Jesus, God, and Holy-spirit is my friend. What is friendship or friend? is it when my friend is down i confort him/her or is it love without any conditions. Where everyday is a fun day with my friends. I think i'm just being schizophrenia. Some times i just prefer to run away. Become some one else in a distant country, change my name, learn a new language.
Well, i can't do it. Cause i love my friends and family. i know that all of you are busy little people doing your own little thing everyday that you have no time for me. haha, i know i'm being self-absorbing/selfish here. i wish that God/Jesus/Holy-spirit could speak back to me. Like having a intimate chat with. Pray seems one way and God might answer back with wait or no or yes or wait longer or just tell you a different answer.
i think is just me being emo today la. I so hate being emo. Doesn't satisfy anything. Hate feelings. It always gives out the wrong signals. Joel, you must be always be joyful cause Jesus is the cause of it. And you must give joy to others around you. You are good at making people laugh and have a crazy time with you. Only you can do that. No more emotions, emotions i die to you, you are out of my life, get out of my house. Don't care about other people think of you, ou just do your own stuff for God, and reach out to new people.

Emo la,