The Tormented Wanted Loved

Hey,

Monday. I like my Monday Wednesday and Friday. As those days, my day starts at 9 am and ends at 5 pm. Not bad huh? My class schedule this semester seems pretty nicely timed and spare out. So i would have enough time to study in-between and rest a little (if needed). Hopefully i would have more free time this semester to be more physically fit and time to myself.

Today started well. The classes were all just introductions. I'll be doing my best to ace them.

Nothing really big happen besides the classes. Well i started my workout routine again. And i'm really praying and hoping by summer or later than i would be able to dunk. I know i have been saying it for years but in those times there were set backs like i got sick, injure, and busy schedule. Hope i have enough time to push myself to able to dunk this time.

My main mission all this while has always been able to dunk. I really want too. God please let me be able.

I got a workout plan. All plan out this whole semester to make me able to dunk yet i think it might take me longer a bit like maybe into my summer too. So from Jan to June i guess.

Alright, i better be sleeping soon. Tomorrow i got two classes. hehe. So nighty night.

Hurt,

Everyday Sunday

Hey,

Sunday was quite good. Went to earlier service than my usual time. I went to the morning service. There is so many people. And it is pack. I'm really not going to early service next time.

Later i went to cut my hair. This time they got it right. I showed them a picture of me with short hair. I think i kinda like it. haha.

After all that, i head back to the school. I went there to print out my class times and check what books to get for classes.

I'm ready for school. Hope this semester would be good and great. Alright is late. I want to be up full of energy and strength. So till then nighty night.

Pray,

Stomachache in the Head

Hi,

Saturday. It was quite good.

Got up early

Went to play basketball with my hall-mates

Lunch with my friends.

My roommate arrive back to school

Dinner with my roommate.

We went shopping for awhile to help me get some stuff

Watch some movies and shows.

Snoozing off for tomorrow church.

Nighty night.

headache,

Waves of Emotion Interact...

Hi,

My Friday has been good. I went back to the dorm. Did some unpacking of cloths and stuff. I didn't know i got so much junk.

Anyway, i went out with my RA and SLD. (RA is Resident Assistant and SLD is Spiritual Leader). They are cool people. We went out to have dinner. Did some talking together and just to get to know them better.

After dinner, we went to place to find a couch for their room. They are redecorating their room and getting a couch to give a more cozy look to their room. We went to all the cheap places to get stuff. Like a second shops. We stop at one place. The store is called Goodwill. People just basically give away stuff here from anything to everything.

The Lord was good to them. We went to that store and they found a couch that they like. The best part was the couch only cost 50 dollars. The couch was well maintain even though there was few scratches. But it was a good deal. They brought it. Now they are just waiting to be delivered.

Another good part to this story was that the couch was just delivered to the store like few hours ago. It showed God's blessing. wow, right?

We came back. I went to my room to continue cleaning. I'm kinda still doing it. So i'm going to take my leave now to continue unpacking. Nighty night.

SS,

Ticking Clock of the Day

Hi,

Thursday. I spent doing pretty much in bed. Snooze my day off. Well i actually did a little bit of stuff. Reading and watching shows.

But other than that is quite much nothing.

Anyway, i'm going to watch a show together with my friends. Catch me another time. nighty night.

Time,

Hologram of the Heart

Hi,

My day was quite spent reading a book. I have been doing a intensive and deep Bible study on the book of Revelation. I'm not searching for when the Lord is coming back. Nor am i looking for the coming of the antichrist.

We shouldn't look for those signs as it can hurt your Christian journey. I look at this signs as a way to have a period of time spent in sin. If you set a date to the Lord's coming and the date is a long time from now. Then you might spent doing other things than growing your relationship with Jesus Christ. To walk in righteousness. So we shouldn't cook up dates but let us be on our toes of faith. Keep on growing in the love of Jesus Christ. And pray for revival throughout nations.

Anyway, my study is tough and long. I'm not going to post my Bible study on my devotion blog. But if you want than i think i can do a Bible study when i get back to Malaysia. Just let me know on email or comment.

Other the time studying, i have been also having fun. I'm watch a TV series on youtube. Old series. The X-men evolution. It's quite interesting because they took a different plot line from the original. I got a lot to catch up.

I also finally get to watch the Michael Jackson - This Is It. It's quite a good show. He is such a good worker behind the scenes. The way he knows his songs and the things he wants in the concert is just simply amazing. He really done a lot to change music and dance from the oldies.

The only concern i have for him which is his faith. I hope he stayed strong with Christianity.

Alright. I want to get some snooze time. Nighty night.

Beats,

In Sadness, There Shall be Turning Point

Hi,

Tuesday. Each day goes by thinking of home. The many people i dearly miss. How much long shall i bear this pain. My mind set in the people i love. Many i wish to see again. My heart aches in every second the day goes by. Emo many people will say. But i'm not sad at all. Just in love sick. I care for the people i know. I pray in every hour with tears on my face.

I cannot bear this wait already. It's been months and more months to come. I can only click next on each photo to see the faces that i dearly miss. Many have grown. Mature. Wisdom. Love.

Every hour i tell myself that i will stay strong. In time i shall see the faces. The smiles. The joy. The sadness. The emotions. The unity.

How i want to answer their questions. How i want to show the love God has with me. How i want to impart God's truth in their heart. This fiery passion of love for Jesus Christ boils in my blood. My heart beat with compassion for others. I'm weak and broken. God has made me strong and rich with His love.

Glory and praise to Him. Lord Jesus Christ you are my everything. My close friend. My lover. My hero. My master. My father.

I cannot wait no more. No more. No more i say again. The faces back home i mourn for them. Heal them. Hold them. My tears cry out for them. God i pray let your Holy Spirit burn in them. I want to see deep passion. I want my church to be filled with prayers and worship unto you. My Lord Jesus Christ. You are my everything, My Lord Jesus Christ.

Build me a strong man. I want to build your temple. I want the people to know who is the real God. The real God that created the heavens and earth with words. The real God that made Man and Woman in Your own image. The real God that help His people in dieing need of you. Restore this nation and the nations of the earth. Like in Amos 9:11

¹¹ "In that day I will restore
David's fallen tent.
I will repair its broken places,
restore its ruins,

and build it as it used to be,

It hurts. It hurts. It hurts to see my people lost. Lost because they don't seek for you. Their seek to filled themselves with works. I pray that they won't be like the pharisees. Heartless. I pray again the heart of religious. Give them a heart of love. The love in a relationship. Relationship that love bond two lovers together.

There is a thousands word i can say. Yet i want to pray that they will come back to your first commandment. The greatest and most important above all commandment.

In Matthew 22:37-40

³⁷Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. ³⁸This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself. ⁴⁰All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two

Please i pray that the people will come back to this. My prayers go out to them. My prayers cry out.

My joy shall return to me as the people rejoice in your temple. People shouting praises to Your name. Worship and prayer in the center of Your temple. Glory Glory Glory be unto You. Lord Jesus Christ. Let there be tears of joy. Let there be power among Your people. Let there be revival in this land. Let there be like Psalm 100 be in the nations of the earth.

¹ Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.

² Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.

³ Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.

⁴ Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.

⁵ For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;

his faithfulness continues through all generations.

My love goes out to my family, friends and people. Take care now. The Lord Jesus Christ is nearer than you know. His in you all. Let Him grow in you. Let Him carry your burden. Let Him be your path to righteousness. The reason Him wants to be intimately with you because He loves you. His death and resurrection has a purpose. To reunite with us. His love has payed the price. The price that sin has cause to us. death. The love that enable us to connect back with God. To return us in the love-relationship that He so dearly wants with us.

Are you willing to open your heart to this relationship. No more tears. No more fear. No more worries.

Love,

UnHand Me...

Hey,

Today was my last day in Kansas City. Is not fun touching snow with your bear hands. It burns. A step closer to frost-bite.

Anyway, that picture was taken before today. There was a snow storm but i couldn't take picture because the pictures turn out unable to show the snow.

Back today as my last day here in Kansas City. It's been a good stay here, i enjoy staying with family friends and i hope that i would be able to stay with them next time.

My friend drop me at the airport after a long drive getting there. We kinda took a different route and find ourselves lost. But American roads are quite easy. Just need to find the right number and it will lead you to where you need to go.

i forgot to take some pictures of the airport. The airport here in Kansas City is skinny. Unlike Malaysian airport. This airport is thin that the parking lot is near by the airplanes and near by to the terminals. It takes like 5 minutes to get to the terminal from the parking lot by walking.

In the end, my flight was smooth. Arrive back here with ease. Waited for my friend for 45 minutes to pick me. He just finish work.

Now back at the dorms. Preparing myself for school. Have to get books soon. Hope things will be good.

i have to sleep. i have been up since 6am. So catch me on the next post. Nighty night.

Fingers,