Next After The Birthday.

Hi,

50 Days of Spring. Sunday.

I had a quite a day today. Online church was great. Learn much i did.

After church, i hang out in my friend's dorm to do my laundry.

Finishing up my laundry

i did some homework. Finish up my English paper. So much to write and all.

That is all i did today. Now i'm hanging out with my roommate. Watching some power rangers. haha. Tomorrow might be a long day. So till then nighty night.

Countdown,

Silent Birthday Together.

Hi,

Saturday. 21st Birthday.

I woke up several times. Staying in bed staring into the celling. Thoughts running through my head. 21st Birthday for the first time. I'm old enough to be called an adult.

I lost trace of my thoughts went my roommate got up from his bed to take a shower. Not knowing that i'm awake. I fake my sleep.

Seeing him stocking his every move. Making sure he does not see me awake. He gets out of the room. A sign of relieve for me. Thoughts. Thoughts. That is all i think of...

I got up for my bed. Pondering all the time. In the shower. Seeing. My hand. My body. My feet. Wondering what has change. I'm lost in on my birthday. The shower seems long than it only took 5 minutes. Skin smells good. But in still with thoughts.

Thoughts filled my day. The clock tick by so fast than hours seems to drift past seemingly. I open my emails. Countless wishes to my surprise. Many say "Happy Birthday". Not a single thought run past me that time. 21 happy birthday seems, so nothing to me. It means nothing. Is just adds to another year of oldness. Yet i think, have i grown wiser? smarter? stronger? healthier? Unique-r?

i thought to myself what lesson have i thought my fellow people. What my 21 years have i taught others to be? Am i a good teacher? mentor? master?

Thoughts thoughts. Running through my head.

I gather myself. Collect my thoughts together. I have to do stuff today. I wish i shouldn't but i have too. School is what i'm here to do. During this time, thoughts still run through my head. Uncontrollability. Lost in thoughts.

The day went by. Night came as swift as sun went down. I walk alone road in my paradise. Have i done justice to my friends. Am i dear friend to friends. I guess so cause they seem to know me well.

Hours going by. I sit at the computer desk staring at the screen filled with English words.

Until a friend put a hand on my shoulder to tell me is good for me to follow him. I did. I went to McDonalds. He knows. He knows. how to put a smile on my face. a happy meal came fast as i thought of it. A dragon pop out from the happy meal box to put a smile on my face. Pretending to be a kid again just fills the heart.

I rest tonight to know that i have friends that care. Most important of all. Jesus Christ was on my mind the whole time. I guess i have to get back with work with him. My lover. My king. My brother. My lover.

Hey guys thank you for all the birthday wishes. Just want to say thank you again. God bless you too and do continue to pray for me. And never let go of Jesus Christ. Think of Him all the time. Worth it.

Good night.

=),

Galaxy Awaits You..

Hello,

Friday.

It is quite a day. One class got cancelled for unsure reasons. So i did not have any class till 2pm. I spent time for myself like one to one with God.

Before i knew of my class was cancelled, i was at convocation. Convocation today was really good. The speaker shared about wisdom using the Luke 10:38-42 as the core message. Interesting stuff.

Anyway, classes went smoothly. Just i have much work to do. My English paper is going pretty good. I got quite lot of work to do this week.

After classes, i just have a good dinner with some friends then went to back home. I went home to have some time sleeping.

I wanted to go play some basketball but it turn out way with sleep. haha.

I'm excited about my Birthday coming up at the same time sad. My 21st birthday and i'm celebrating it alone. None of my close friends with me even family at worst. The count down to my birthday just makes me go down in tears. Friends here is so much different from back home.

Counting the messages on facebook has given me a little boast of love that friends have for me.

I have come to look back this 21 years of my life and thought what was my greatest and worst achievements. It was easy listing down like 5 things but it slowly die down.

I have come to think that what have i really been doing to my life all this years. Now i'm setting new goals. Positive goals. Goals that glorify God. Goal that i want to be Christ-like.

Anyway, i want to take time with myself now. Just going through my life. And of course sleep, so till then nighty night.

Smile,

Parallel Fingers

Hey,

Thursday. Exam.

The exam today was hard. Actually more towards complicated. The questions were written such a way to get people confuse. Well i think i have answer each question with caution and i have quite alright.

After the exam. I went to the computer lab to work on my paper. I'm rolling with my paper. I manage to finish up 3 pages now another 5 more to go.

Anyway, at 1pm i have to meet up with my RA to have accountability with him. It went smoothly. He was checking on me whether my devotion and studies were keeping up. And on other issues too.

After the meeting, i went back to do get things done with my paper.

I came back home here around 6pm. Have lunch here then play a little basketball for warm up for tonights game.

The game did not go well. Our team could have won but i guess we got slackly a bit. I think our team can do better.

Later came back home angry, you know with playing basketball game if not won. Took a long shower to cool down myself. Did some study. Now going to bed. Tomorrow would be nice day. It's one day closer to my Birthday. I feel excited but i think it would be another sad birthday. Well i don't get to see all my friends and family. Also i'm not so close to my American friends too.

Oh well i might be wrong. But i want presents. =(

Okay i better get to bed, so till then nighty night.

Thumb,

Reflects of Danger

Hello,

Wednesday.

I was totally sleepy today. I was dozing off in classes and off classes. I'm not happy with myself. I did not have a good rest at all. I was not trying to be up all night at all. I went to bed early but i could not sleep. I think i knock off around 3am.

Anyway, i thank God there was no exams today and classes were pretty not so important.

I got back from classes. i just went straight to bed.

I woke up around 11pm. I did not know i slept for so long.

Tomorrow i have an exam which i'm not really prepare. I know a quite much of the material that is going to be tested. I wish i just did not slept too long. Well i reap what i sow.

Now i need your prayers on this exam. Pray for me to be full of energy and able to answer the questions with wisdom from God. Pray that what i have studied and material i learn be on the exam and things would go smoothly.

Okay i'll be going to bed now, so till then nighty night. Do pray for me please.

Counter,

Into the Valley of Focus.

Hey,

Tuesday.

So i have an exam coming up on Thursday. My Music class. There is much going on in these 8 weeks. Paper dues and classes are going into overdrive. Well i'm sought of staying on top with things.

The problem i'm facing now is that i'm being lazy to do my work. I need my sense of motivation.

I really need prayers now for this 8 weeks left here.

I pretty much sought of force myself to do some work today. Try to finish up on my English paper.

Later in the day, i got back from studying around 3pm. I straight away got knock out. Really tried. Slept till 5pm. Had dinner.

After dinner, i had a basketball game. It went quite bad. We were close till the 2nd half. Just many mistakes. It was a bad game. We should have won.

At night, the hall had the usual hall meeting followed by prayer meetings. My prayer group was alright. I taught about priorities. It was a lesson for myself too. Need to be focus all over again.

Besides all this. I got some good news. I have new scholarship. Well they increase my scholarship money to 6 thousand split between the next two semesters. God do really bless in unique ways.

And if i get to be an SLD(Spiritual Leader Director) for spring semester then i would definite get more scholarship. So just pray for me on that whether i should take up the spot. Being a SLD which i would be a leader to a whole hall (to 30 people or more).

Alright. There is just several prayer request that i need.

1. pray for strong conviction to study and stay focus till i'm back home in Malaysia.

2. pray for a decision to be made in whether i should do ministry or biblical studies.

3. pray for scholarships

4. pray for my desire to lead a hall to become a SLD for spring onwards.

5. pray for my parents as they are in China for some time there.

6. pray for my sisters that their family and themselves be strong with the God

7. pray for me that i won't ponder to much of home (Malaysia) or to be totally forget about it till i get back home.

8. pray for my health even though i'm healthy and well but just to stay strong.

9. pray for me to be comfortable with God that i would seek and soak deeper in His word

10. pray for me to be confident with myself that i would dare myself to ask a girl out or make friends with girls. (nothing serious just want to know the ladies well)

That's my list that really need prayer maybe number ten not so-so much. haha

Okay, i better get to sleep. Tomorrow is truly a long day. So till next post nighty night.

Light,

High Notion of Public Option

Hi,

Monday.

School was easy today. The teachers were slowing things down to let the students get back in rhythm with work. Classes were just alright. Well my English class is a bit pack with work. My research paper is due end of the month and on top with that there is another paper. Drama reaction paper where i have to go to the school treater performers and write a report on my own reaction on the play.

The school play here is very big and it is even a major too.

Anyway, i did not do much today besides from doing school work and little studying.

I came back and watch some shows with my roommate. My roommate is into power rangers and he wanted to watch the old season. So i found the old season and started watching it together.

We watch nearly every kind of shows together. From Heroes to Anime to Power Rangers.

Cool guy. He is going to be an SLD next semester and i'll be under him as a Prayer leader. And by next year i would be training to be an SLD also. I would get scholarship if i become an SLD.

Later in the night, i had to go to leaders meeting with my RA and SLD. It was a great time. We were just talking and getting to know ourselves better.

Now, i'm getting ready to go to bed. Tomorrow will be long day for me as i have much work needed to be done. Spring break has been a good break for me. Now now i have to get in track with school work and great good GPA till i get back home. Just another 8 more weeks.

Alright, i better sleep so till then nighty night.

Nay,

Bang! Bang! Just Great!

Hi,

Sunday.

I could not sleep well the entire night. I do not know why. I got up and went to the front-desk to ask them to open my room.

I try to sleep some more but i was just to awake.

Anyway, i just got some cloths together and went to my friend's place to do laundry. Just hang out with friend.

Today everyone was coming back from Spring break. I did some cleaning up in my room. I'm so happy than my roommate was coming back today.

Alright, i guess i would go to bed now. I feel ready for school. 8 more weeks till summer. So till then nighty night. May 16 i should be back.

Oh i was watching with my roommate the news about health form bill. Which is a sour time. This health form will break many American hearts. This form pass which makes abortion and euthanasia is made available. This is really crazy.

I dare say that this will be a huge down fall for America. Not in economic only but in spirituality.

Do pray for America. Pray that the Christians in America will rise up and fight this evil war.

Do please pray for America.

This health form bill will hurt many international and national students in America. Because it will might rise my student bill to study here and other factors too.

Hurt,