Hello,
Woke up severe times today. Is like I'm awake a moment the next I'm a sleep. I think i did it four times today. Ish. In the end i woke up at 11am. Shower, and walk around in a dizzy way to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Nobody was home today except the maids and little Philip(my sister baby). Went to the television room to catch some movies. Love watching movies. Today i was in time to see Big Fish. I was wanting to watch this show for ages. Now i get to see it. I give it a 8/10. Is well written and the filming of it is great too. Is Tim Burton work, sure is going to be good show. The show is light and easy to understand. It makes me feel like a kid again watching it. Just plain awesome. Don't know the show. Click here.
After watching all that, had to do some work for my visa. Is so many things to do, just don't know where to beginning and also time is to short. Well, working on it like crazy mad dog. Went to ss15 in the late afternoon to do some photocopy. Spent a bit of time there alone in Starbucks. Hmm...i didn't drink coffee(not a real big fan of it). I don't know whether mocha is coffee a not. But i just like it a lot. =)
When home, rest my head. Wanted to go for basketball, but the lack of replies are just to sad. Also i felt a chili down my spine that is going to rain all night long. And it did. Today i feel like posting a lot. That is why there is four posts today. =) Besides that, been playing a lot of "You know what game". Is fun. i still don't understand why people have to be so tension over it. Well, i just play with a smile =). so i guess i might be seeing some of you tomorrow. Will be looking forward of tomorrows meeting, Life group. I wonder what God has install for us tomorrow? this is nighty night then.
Hook up,
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Sisters...
Hi,
I'm going to talk about my sisters. Both of them are simply unique in so many ways. They are will be close to my heart. Even though i don't really show it but it is true. I can still remember the time when we were still living in Shah Alam house. And i got some "problem, stomach problem" and mom and dad are not around. Rachel drove the van and JuJu(Julienne) sitting beside me all the way to a clinic to see a doctor. Then later laugh about it. I can also remember how you trick me into believing that, either Rachel or JuJu was in a bag and flight back in a bag or something like that. And show me how either you two fit in the bag(still cannot believe it). Well i like to say thank you sisters, for all the caring and love you show me. i believe that God will bless you two more and more each day.
P.S have you read my email that i send out to you two....hehe.... just want to be sure. I need this one. please.
with many love,
Joel Paul Toh Yeung Yi
I'm going to talk about my sisters. Both of them are simply unique in so many ways. They are will be close to my heart. Even though i don't really show it but it is true. I can still remember the time when we were still living in Shah Alam house. And i got some "problem, stomach problem" and mom and dad are not around. Rachel drove the van and JuJu(Julienne) sitting beside me all the way to a clinic to see a doctor. Then later laugh about it. I can also remember how you trick me into believing that, either Rachel or JuJu was in a bag and flight back in a bag or something like that. And show me how either you two fit in the bag(still cannot believe it). Well i like to say thank you sisters, for all the caring and love you show me. i believe that God will bless you two more and more each day.
P.S have you read my email that i send out to you two....hehe.... just want to be sure. I need this one. please.
with many love,
Joel Paul Toh Yeung Yi
Back to School
Hello,
I'm going back to school soon. Not high school, but university. To many of you that still don't know where I'm going, I'm going to Virginia or VA(for short) in America. Is near by New York. is at the north west side of America. Going to a place called Lynchburg. The school is called Liberty University. Is a Christian school, has a strong foundation in the scriptures. Is a great school.
I'm going back to school soon. Not high school, but university. To many of you that still don't know where I'm going, I'm going to Virginia or VA(for short) in America. Is near by New York. is at the north west side of America. Going to a place called Lynchburg. The school is called Liberty University. Is a Christian school, has a strong foundation in the scriptures. Is a great school.
here is a map of the place,
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see I'm quite close to the airport(is below the school) and also quite near to town(the town is upwards the map, is called Lynchburg). There is a train cuts to the school. So i might have no trouble getting around town or the neighborhood. The school is still expanding, so the map might be wrong of the school grounds. Cause is one of the biggest schools in Virginia maybe America.
(you can minimize the map to see, what I'm calling about).
this map show you the terrain,
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See how close I'm near the mountain. During winter, maybe i can go skiing. Great school. If any of you want to study overseas and want to study in America. I highly advice you to come to this school. Is school some how has it all. I'm beginning to fall in love with school. Don't worry about me not attending church. There is a church in the school itself(if I'm not mistaken). I'm going to stay in campus. Cause is easy, why? cause the school itself is like a mini town already. So there is tons of things to do on campus. So mom, dad and sisters, if you are planing to come down. Best if we meet at New York or you want to come to Virginia, then you have to stay some where in town which is Lynchburg. There is a way. =) Or any of you are coming down to America. Be happy to see meet you, just let me know, okay?
Love at first sight,
Love at first sight,
Hold Down&Up!!!
Hey,
Having a lot of thoughts lately and a lot of mix feelings. Is crazy. Sometimes that things are happening a bit to fast for me but i manage to keep up. I have come to realization that some how whatever i commit to do, i have a strong authority over it. What i mean is that is easy for me to give commands to others. Like some of you have witness me giving command over 107 kids on Discovery Days. Or other thing, is people ask me how to do this and that. Feeling that I'm at the center of all things. haha. Well is just a thought that is running through my head.
Been reading so many blogs and reading mine. I think i need to brush up on my English. I can't get around reading any book properly, i will some how never finish it or just fall a sleep on the first few pages. I more of a guy that need things fast pace. Like television. Where there are thousand of colors zooming pass in front of my eyes. Some how i prefer some thing audio-able and at the same time something black and white. So is like a read-a-long-audio-book. Hopefully one day that man will created a book with audio, So each word you read there will be words speaking too. Well feel free to leave a comment on my writing. I some how to grow better writing.
Some of you have come to my room before and see a number of books, most of the books in my room have a lot of pictures. It helps me to focus better. The other books that don't have much picture are the Bible and more Bible and maybe some devotion books and research Bible books. Other than that, all are picture books.
You know this pass few years, I'm beginning to realize that I got less money and more less money coming in to my pocket. Not that i borrow people. Not that i spend much. Is just less. Not like my school days, where i use to have a lot of money. usually i can buy like three pairs of Nike shoe in a year. Now this year, I'm down to one pair and maybe one more pair my Christmas. The money coming in is slower than the the money going out. This is so heart braking. With the things i need this year, i don't have the income to get those items. Have to work on it. Hopefully i can get help. =)
I don't understand why people think that I'm emo or depress. Do you see me always alone and wanting to kill myself or listening to some like emo shit to cry my heart out. i still don't understand why people think that I'm emo. Is it that i don't put a smile on my face, means I'm emo? How sure are you that I'm emo? So if put on a serious face on, does it count as emo? I think is a bad attitude to walk at somebody and then say why so emo? At times it hurts when people say that to me. It is disgusting. Start a proper conversation, like "How are you?" then see the conversation goes from there. i tell you, how in the world do you know my feelings. I give you a quote 'Don't judge a book by it's cover'. The face can show you only what is in the surface, what matters is skin deep. Really i still don't understand by emo. Tell me or comment on it. What makes you say that I'm emo?
Things in my life is just getting a lot more harder. I wish that i can know my future. Hate it when is a mystery. Wouldn't it be easier to know your future. Then you can work on it and achieve it faster. Some things are better left in the unknown. Wish that God let us know some clues of the future. Well i think i should just left it here.
Man, my room is in a mess. super mess. I shall pick up where i left off. Finish cleaning. handsome little room. =) so now i shall play some games and quickly get my documents done and out.
To the moon,
Having a lot of thoughts lately and a lot of mix feelings. Is crazy. Sometimes that things are happening a bit to fast for me but i manage to keep up. I have come to realization that some how whatever i commit to do, i have a strong authority over it. What i mean is that is easy for me to give commands to others. Like some of you have witness me giving command over 107 kids on Discovery Days. Or other thing, is people ask me how to do this and that. Feeling that I'm at the center of all things. haha. Well is just a thought that is running through my head.
Been reading so many blogs and reading mine. I think i need to brush up on my English. I can't get around reading any book properly, i will some how never finish it or just fall a sleep on the first few pages. I more of a guy that need things fast pace. Like television. Where there are thousand of colors zooming pass in front of my eyes. Some how i prefer some thing audio-able and at the same time something black and white. So is like a read-a-long-audio-book. Hopefully one day that man will created a book with audio, So each word you read there will be words speaking too. Well feel free to leave a comment on my writing. I some how to grow better writing.
Some of you have come to my room before and see a number of books, most of the books in my room have a lot of pictures. It helps me to focus better. The other books that don't have much picture are the Bible and more Bible and maybe some devotion books and research Bible books. Other than that, all are picture books.
You know this pass few years, I'm beginning to realize that I got less money and more less money coming in to my pocket. Not that i borrow people. Not that i spend much. Is just less. Not like my school days, where i use to have a lot of money. usually i can buy like three pairs of Nike shoe in a year. Now this year, I'm down to one pair and maybe one more pair my Christmas. The money coming in is slower than the the money going out. This is so heart braking. With the things i need this year, i don't have the income to get those items. Have to work on it. Hopefully i can get help. =)
I don't understand why people think that I'm emo or depress. Do you see me always alone and wanting to kill myself or listening to some like emo shit to cry my heart out. i still don't understand why people think that I'm emo. Is it that i don't put a smile on my face, means I'm emo? How sure are you that I'm emo? So if put on a serious face on, does it count as emo? I think is a bad attitude to walk at somebody and then say why so emo? At times it hurts when people say that to me. It is disgusting. Start a proper conversation, like "How are you?" then see the conversation goes from there. i tell you, how in the world do you know my feelings. I give you a quote 'Don't judge a book by it's cover'. The face can show you only what is in the surface, what matters is skin deep. Really i still don't understand by emo. Tell me or comment on it. What makes you say that I'm emo?
Things in my life is just getting a lot more harder. I wish that i can know my future. Hate it when is a mystery. Wouldn't it be easier to know your future. Then you can work on it and achieve it faster. Some things are better left in the unknown. Wish that God let us know some clues of the future. Well i think i should just left it here.
Man, my room is in a mess. super mess. I shall pick up where i left off. Finish cleaning. handsome little room. =) so now i shall play some games and quickly get my documents done and out.
To the moon,
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Go Go Juice!
Hello,
Going to miss you guys a lot. Is so heartache to go to another place to study and pursue a career. So many things are running in my head. Some times i just want to spend time with each and everyone. Is almost like me on a train at the door of the train while holding your hand. We can't seem to let go each other. As the train moves faster, we can't hold on no more. Times.
Well my day seems slow. Been doing some work for myself. Trying to finish up my room by cleaning. And trying to get a interview with the US Embassy for my VISA. There is still so much work to be done for my applications to US. Such headache. But is worth it. I'm starting to feel that I'm going to do very well there. Like i almost know people there. I feel that i know Virginia by heart(where my school is going to be there). So much love for it. Hope you guys can come to visit me there. I'll take you to New York. hehe.
i went to worship practice today. Just to hang out there. I say that the worship today is enjoyable. And is nice to see a lively team up there. Even though some came straight from work. But i can see in their faces that they are enjoying it. Is great to see a team up there, partying for Jesus. It show a powerful band or team. Especially when the worship leader leads the people to a awesome time of worship. I feel that worship leaders must really take charge in leading the people of the church to a time of worship. To pump up people. Well, the worship leaders in our church now, is getting there. I really enjoy myself today. Smiles.
I have just install garena already in my computer. Guess what. It works well with my wireless. No lag at all. So smooth. I'm so blur to the dotA world now. Everything is so different now. Well, skill is skill. So anyway, going to wake up early tomorrow. Hope for a fruitful tomorrow. nighty night.
Juiceness,
Going to miss you guys a lot. Is so heartache to go to another place to study and pursue a career. So many things are running in my head. Some times i just want to spend time with each and everyone. Is almost like me on a train at the door of the train while holding your hand. We can't seem to let go each other. As the train moves faster, we can't hold on no more. Times.
Well my day seems slow. Been doing some work for myself. Trying to finish up my room by cleaning. And trying to get a interview with the US Embassy for my VISA. There is still so much work to be done for my applications to US. Such headache. But is worth it. I'm starting to feel that I'm going to do very well there. Like i almost know people there. I feel that i know Virginia by heart(where my school is going to be there). So much love for it. Hope you guys can come to visit me there. I'll take you to New York. hehe.
i went to worship practice today. Just to hang out there. I say that the worship today is enjoyable. And is nice to see a lively team up there. Even though some came straight from work. But i can see in their faces that they are enjoying it. Is great to see a team up there, partying for Jesus. It show a powerful band or team. Especially when the worship leader leads the people to a awesome time of worship. I feel that worship leaders must really take charge in leading the people of the church to a time of worship. To pump up people. Well, the worship leaders in our church now, is getting there. I really enjoy myself today. Smiles.
I have just install garena already in my computer. Guess what. It works well with my wireless. No lag at all. So smooth. I'm so blur to the dotA world now. Everything is so different now. Well, skill is skill. So anyway, going to wake up early tomorrow. Hope for a fruitful tomorrow. nighty night.
Juiceness,
Some Good Old Days
Hi,
When i was really young, maybe around 6-8 years old. I use to watch some really good cartoon shows. Not like now, where cartoons are just violent and not really meaningful. During that time, cartoons will teach us valuable lessons on how to be a good person. And teach us to be a not to be bad people. These cartoons were really favorites.
Shows like Atom Ant, Secret Squirrel, Bugs Bunny Show, and more. Now I'm currently watching Atom Ant on Youtube. Is just brings back good old memories. Atom Ant is best hero there is. He is not crash-able, and i think cannot die. So i give you the first episode to the show. Atom Ant
great show.
When i was really young, maybe around 6-8 years old. I use to watch some really good cartoon shows. Not like now, where cartoons are just violent and not really meaningful. During that time, cartoons will teach us valuable lessons on how to be a good person. And teach us to be a not to be bad people. These cartoons were really favorites.
Shows like Atom Ant, Secret Squirrel, Bugs Bunny Show, and more. Now I'm currently watching Atom Ant on Youtube. Is just brings back good old memories. Atom Ant is best hero there is. He is not crash-able, and i think cannot die. So i give you the first episode to the show. Atom Ant
great show.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Blinded Scene
Hi,
Quite a day for me. Did some errands here and there. Is for my visa. I'm nearly to the end already. Is so near yet so far. Got to get it done quick and fast. I'm still having mix emotions. I'm happy and sad at the same time. I'm happy that I'm going to study in US and going to meet you people and start a different lifestyle or just maintain. The sad part is that I'm going to miss the people here and the church here. How i was a huge influence to many. So yea, having mix emotions.
Day by day go by. I start missing people and remembering the time spent with each and everyone i know. Is hurts so deep to not see the faces for a long time. Well i will remember you guys by memory and by heart.
So today i did a lot of things. I was excited today cause tonight was basketball, i pray for good weather and hope it doesn't rain. Anyway, in the afternoon after lunch. My new maid came to me and told me that her hand-phone couldn't work. The buttons were like spoil. So i play with it and try to figure the problem. In the end, i gave up and i told my dad that we need to buy a new phone for her. But my dad being stubborn as usual. Insist that it will work. So he himself play with it and still couldn't work. So he gave me some money to buy a new hand-phone for the maid. So then, i call Zach Siow and Daniel out. We went to Subang Parade to check out some phones there.
Once there, they haven't had their lunch yet. No, choice have to go to McDonald's for lunch. Had a small chit chat. As we were calling, i decide to test my maid phone again. (i believe that God has a strong senses of humor). The phone buttons can work again. I press everything and anything on the phone and it works. I on and off it severe times. And the buttons are function-able again. i laugh about it. Telling God that He has a great sense of humor. I guess God has things install for me. Anyway, so we walk around Subang Parade for awhile. Sent them home. Told my dad that the phone is working again.
i took a nice good evening nap. Woke up just in time for dinner. Had dinner with Philip and Zach Siow. The food in ss14 the store near the BP station. Just takes to long. Waited like for 45 minutes for your food to come. Went we wanted to leave, the weather started to change. Man. God today, is just humorous. Thought it was going to stop already. So we went to ss18 court to play basketball. Played like less then hour it started to rain heavily. I think to myself, Why God. Such nice weather today, and You have to rain everyday? Well God is God. Can't blame Him. So we end up going to Suku for some small drinks and have a bit of catching up.
I'm going to rest my head now. Maybe i wake up a bit later to do some stuff. i guess is nighty night now.
Catching it,
Quite a day for me. Did some errands here and there. Is for my visa. I'm nearly to the end already. Is so near yet so far. Got to get it done quick and fast. I'm still having mix emotions. I'm happy and sad at the same time. I'm happy that I'm going to study in US and going to meet you people and start a different lifestyle or just maintain. The sad part is that I'm going to miss the people here and the church here. How i was a huge influence to many. So yea, having mix emotions.
Day by day go by. I start missing people and remembering the time spent with each and everyone i know. Is hurts so deep to not see the faces for a long time. Well i will remember you guys by memory and by heart.
So today i did a lot of things. I was excited today cause tonight was basketball, i pray for good weather and hope it doesn't rain. Anyway, in the afternoon after lunch. My new maid came to me and told me that her hand-phone couldn't work. The buttons were like spoil. So i play with it and try to figure the problem. In the end, i gave up and i told my dad that we need to buy a new phone for her. But my dad being stubborn as usual. Insist that it will work. So he himself play with it and still couldn't work. So he gave me some money to buy a new hand-phone for the maid. So then, i call Zach Siow and Daniel out. We went to Subang Parade to check out some phones there.
Once there, they haven't had their lunch yet. No, choice have to go to McDonald's for lunch. Had a small chit chat. As we were calling, i decide to test my maid phone again. (i believe that God has a strong senses of humor). The phone buttons can work again. I press everything and anything on the phone and it works. I on and off it severe times. And the buttons are function-able again. i laugh about it. Telling God that He has a great sense of humor. I guess God has things install for me. Anyway, so we walk around Subang Parade for awhile. Sent them home. Told my dad that the phone is working again.
i took a nice good evening nap. Woke up just in time for dinner. Had dinner with Philip and Zach Siow. The food in ss14 the store near the BP station. Just takes to long. Waited like for 45 minutes for your food to come. Went we wanted to leave, the weather started to change. Man. God today, is just humorous. Thought it was going to stop already. So we went to ss18 court to play basketball. Played like less then hour it started to rain heavily. I think to myself, Why God. Such nice weather today, and You have to rain everyday? Well God is God. Can't blame Him. So we end up going to Suku for some small drinks and have a bit of catching up.
I'm going to rest my head now. Maybe i wake up a bit later to do some stuff. i guess is nighty night now.
Catching it,
History...
Hi,
Been think about my pass. How i was as a kid, and now, what i have become. As i see it, it is a total change and is almost like a 180° change. Thinking back, i feel so less lively and gave a whatever attitude to things around me. i know many of you saw me last time, i was a lonely kid, mostly angry and emotionally dead. i didn't want to be involve in anything that involves church related. I didn't like what the older people look at me and how they treat me. I didn't want to be around Christians. Cause i felt that I'm constantly judge by people. The feeling is so pressurizing. I felt so box down to almost worthless. I keep asking myself that time, "why am i a Pastor Kid(PK)?", "i wasn't ask to be one".
Even at home is a different feeling from church. At home mostly i didn't get to have fun with dad or mom. Know why? They are at work. Busy with that and this. Mostly i was taken care by my aunts and my grandma. I can almost say that i didn't felt love. Thank God for loving sisters i have. i didn't have many friends in school or in church. Only a few. Having friends also, they were not close friends.
At a very young age, i started thinking of committing suicide. But fail to do it. I believe is God that stop me from doing it. Thank You, God. And then there was a standard that i have to follow. people that set for me. Parents and church people. Just want to leave this world, couldn't take it no more. Is so hard to be love and care.
I had to out think myself. And live a different life style. i thought to myself, if you can't fight as well join it. So i started, being involve with church. Slowly building myself up from the ground. killing my old self. My old self, maybe i was to narrow minded, to hard on myself. Once i started knowing people personally, i felt better of myself.
I knew that God has begun to work in my life. Cause i went Him in my life. Till now I'm growing to be a better person everyday. Learning from my mistake and wanting more of Him. I hope that will be a great example to many and role model. My life back then, seeing it, is so crap. Now is a new beginning. A better me.
Unique,
Been think about my pass. How i was as a kid, and now, what i have become. As i see it, it is a total change and is almost like a 180° change. Thinking back, i feel so less lively and gave a whatever attitude to things around me. i know many of you saw me last time, i was a lonely kid, mostly angry and emotionally dead. i didn't want to be involve in anything that involves church related. I didn't like what the older people look at me and how they treat me. I didn't want to be around Christians. Cause i felt that I'm constantly judge by people. The feeling is so pressurizing. I felt so box down to almost worthless. I keep asking myself that time, "why am i a Pastor Kid(PK)?", "i wasn't ask to be one".
Even at home is a different feeling from church. At home mostly i didn't get to have fun with dad or mom. Know why? They are at work. Busy with that and this. Mostly i was taken care by my aunts and my grandma. I can almost say that i didn't felt love. Thank God for loving sisters i have. i didn't have many friends in school or in church. Only a few. Having friends also, they were not close friends.
At a very young age, i started thinking of committing suicide. But fail to do it. I believe is God that stop me from doing it. Thank You, God. And then there was a standard that i have to follow. people that set for me. Parents and church people. Just want to leave this world, couldn't take it no more. Is so hard to be love and care.
I had to out think myself. And live a different life style. i thought to myself, if you can't fight as well join it. So i started, being involve with church. Slowly building myself up from the ground. killing my old self. My old self, maybe i was to narrow minded, to hard on myself. Once i started knowing people personally, i felt better of myself.
I knew that God has begun to work in my life. Cause i went Him in my life. Till now I'm growing to be a better person everyday. Learning from my mistake and wanting more of Him. I hope that will be a great example to many and role model. My life back then, seeing it, is so crap. Now is a new beginning. A better me.
Unique,
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