Hey fellow viewers,
Well, for not studying for 2 years is really getting a toll on me. And i really want to study anything.
Is like i'm hungry to study but feel lazy about it. Cause of the word study. Over the years in school i wasn't a big fan of studying, always like to go for training or do something for the school. But i think i'm a bit ADD, but severe teachers got down with me and then WOALA i was able to study. Well, to be around me they say that i could do better, and really i think so la. So now, i'm really really want to start studying. i think also i need some motivation study. scare of the world of college. i'm really scare.
Now the thing is should i spend another 1 year here or should go straight there in America. Many ask me to stay back, should I? if i go now it would be a long time before i get back here. if i stay here is just delaying me by 1 year. hiaz, some times i just can't let go of the youth, the work i'm doing for church, i can't let go of you guys. like something in me, telling me to see you youth grow up as powerful leaders for God and i'm the one behind you guys who mentor you guys from the beginning. I feel so cliff zone man. What should i do? God what you want from me? give me a direct path? i want to see where your finger pointing at? give me a sign? here or US?
In my blood now is full of study mode, i can just pick up a book and just study it. What book to study? Bible? Human body? Sound engineering? Parents? Girls? Guys? what book? Sometimes , not sometimes , a lot of times that i wish my parents are the super rich. Which can support me all the way to US without scholarship or with scholarship. sometime wishing that the church should support me in what i study. Even more plus is if i study theology or ministry studies. God really what you want from me. i'm seeing all my friends already leaving to some place to further their studies. I'm alone.
Well, i guess i'm a good planner, i can plan things for my future but now is just the action. my plan now is like this. I'm going to seat for TOEFL. then going to apply in INTI college for ADP course. and then i still sent in my applications to colleges and unis in America also(especially Liberty university and Messiah College these two are my favorites). Then study in INTI for a short period then the real answer will come, hopefully with lots of prayer and prayer that i will enter in a uni in US in January intake. then i stop INTI and go straight there. if they dont then i study in INTI for a year then still go there. that is the plan. the plan.
you guys still don't know what i'm going to study? answer i'm going to study sports science, kinesiology. never heard of it before, just go answers.com. Well, the first mission is to get TOEFL done and done. then rest is easy to do.
So please pray for me, that i will do well for TOEFL and pray for unis in America to accept me
with lots of love
