I manage to get out of bed early for prayer. I didn't feel good because of yesterday problem. Me and David went to Suzanne house for the 40 day prayer thingy. The drive there i took it easy and a bit slow.
Reach there. The prayer mode was on for me. The first thing that came into my mind was to turn to Colossians. i turn to that book at the first verse i saw in that book was chapter 2 verse 1. I felt that way. I think God is telling me that He is struggling to get into my life. That whole morning God was just speaking to me that how much i was away from Him in this past 2 months. There was so much guilt in me. It was overflowing inside out of me. I burst into tears quietly.
Once i sent David home. I just burst into tears in my car all the way to my room till i fall asleep again.
I wake up around 11am. I prayed like never before. I prayed till i couldn't feel my body. I just talk away. Before i was awake. I think God gave me some bad dreams, not nightmare. Just bad ones. It was always a room, someone walking to the entrance of the room and turning off the lights and left the room. The bad dream was into a loop till i wake up. God was telling me that i was drowning in sin. Guilt.
I try to gather myself and take a shower. Eat cereal for breakfast. Took some deep breath and call my dad. i manage to get through to him and i told him the whole thing.
Later i went to the AAM workshop to find out the cost of the repair. i thank God that these people really work fast. They see the problem, discuss and gave me the total price. Call dad to discuss some more.
Hang around there for awhile till it was time to pick up mom and dad from the airport. Drive home and went back to the workshop to see the parts arrive. Seems alright. Dad gave the green lights to work on it. The car should be done by tomorrow afternoon.
Went home. Took a long shower. Went out for dinner with my sister which just came back from Singapore and my parents. The dinner conversation was about the maid we have that wants to quit after just working with us for six months. It was a lot of negative things about the maid and she was quite bad also. Like didn't do much work. Did half work here and there. The list can go on.
Come home. I was in total blank-out. Super tired. Watch tv got my head spinning. Now i'm going to sleep. Hope tomorrow is better days ahead of me. Till then nighty night and God bless.
Power,
