I See the Light

Hello,

Been in bed for like 24 hours. Is been crazy. Eating a lot of Panadol. Still not feeling well. Didn't do much but sleep and pee the whole day. Didn't eat much too. Stomach didn't feel well too. I try to go to the toilet to sit on the throne but it didn't do much help. That is all I'm going to post today. I think I'm 60% healthy already. I see what tomorrow will be. So just keep me in your prayer.

With love,

Unit Down!!!

Hey,

Feeling very dizzy. Head spinning out of control. Body started to he hot and nose starting to run. I guess I'm getting sick. Must be all the cleaning and all, must got into my system. So now I'm very sick.

I hardly get sick at all, usually once a year i just get sick. So this must be my once a year sickness. My day started as normal, i was feeling pretty much healthy. Then towards the evening, my head started to spin. And now at night body all hot. I think i forgot to shit. Must be it. Hopefully my sickness will subside tomorrow or the next day. Hate being sick. Never like being sick. That is why every morning i wake up i think to myself that I'm healthy and strong, by the power of God inside of me I am strong and healthy. And at night too. So this is Joel first time getting sick in this year.

Anyway, I'm also quite happy today too. It is because i get to see my little nephew walk on his own. It was quite short. It was slow and tiny steps. It just make me so happy to see him starting to walk. He was smiling too about it. Good job little Philip boy. Note to Sis: i didn't play with him today, so don't worry about me transferring my sickness to him, neither am i going to play with him till I'm 100% healthy. Other than that, it was a joyous time.

So that is end of my post. Another thing is that this is a schedule post. I'm actually sleeping already. So do pray for me to be healthy again.

Yours sincerely,

Attack of OCD-ness

Hello,

My OCD-ness just kick in today. Was busy busy busy cleaning my room. I hope that i don't mess it up again. Thinking to change my outlook of the room. See what i can get from ikea. But i have to convince my mom. Man, i didn't know that i have so much dirt in the room. No wonder i don't get asthma. hehe. i could finish cleaning my room today. There is just to much stuff and stuff and stuff to clear. Worse thing is that i got to many paper everywhere and i still have old old school books. Anyone one? i can sell to you at super super low price. To my huge surprise i found my Lego collection. Hopefully i can find my Grimlock. I miss you, Grimlock. hiaz.

So tomorrow is another busy day for me. Cleaning the room. Must be like dust free. That is all i'm posting today. Nothing much happen today. Oh forgot, i went to spy on the worship practice today, and thought that i can just hang out. But to my shock-ness, one of the PA people didn't come. So i have to do it. Must be God doing or i was just there at the right time. So anyway, i'm happy to do it, cause i'll just gain more experience doing it. So that is pretty much my day.

Devotion is great. Today was more like Bible fliping session. Was just fliping and fliping, and reading stories here and there. Is so inside-ful. So i still need to finish my mission: cleaning room.

Gotcha,

Trick or Treat

Hi,

I had a great day today. Is nice to be home alone. The peace and silent that it is offer to me. Is a great time to do my devotion at this type of time. Things just come to live. I like the peace and quiet and silent-ness that my parents are not at home. Where did they go? they went to Seremban for some kind of seminar. They are back already. But i had a very quiet day till they are back. Not that i don't like my parents, is that they like to check up on me.

So in the morning i had to send my van for repairs at ss15. Was a good drive down though. Easy traffic. But after that i don't have a car to go home, so had to take the bus home. Sad. So i waited for about 1hour for a bus. Sad. i was hungry also. Sad. But is fun. Miss sitting on the bus and seeing people sleeping here and there, people talking on the phone about their work or wife/husband or something, know that is just loud and in a angry tone. And at times seeing pretty girls too. Well today i was quite lucky to sit next to one. i didn't know her, but she wait at the bus stop too. So i sat together. And some thing in me today, just make me wanna talk. Soooo....i talk to her. Her name is Jane, didn't get a last name and was not interested to get her number too. Well we got quite a good conversation. She wasn't a Christian. The trip was short. i tell her about some stuff about God and seems so so about it. Guess she is not ready yet. And she was happy too that someone talk to her today. She had quite some stuff in her head and wanted to talk it out. She did. Don't want to share it here, is quite personal to her. She just didn't know who to share with and was depress over it. So i think God send me to talk to her and let me plant a send in her. Well as i got of the bus, i just smile at her and she smile. happy is a good thing.

That is the only thing that happen to me today. Besides Walter calling me cause he saw me at the other side of the bridge and thought why i was sitting there and why i had no car. So i explain it to him. But other than that i got nothing much happen to me today. Today i just feel at peace.

Tomorrow will be long cause i have to clean my room. My mom is beginning to make noise on that matter. And hopefully that i can get a new furniture in my room. So nighty night people.

thoughts

Words Could Not Express

Hi,

Think to myself today that it is going to be quite a interesting day for me. So it start at 10am wake up. Today was suppose to send the van for some minor repairs. But it turns out to be not open cause today is a public holiday, Deepavail. So i have to drop David at home and Jay too. And David to pick me up later. Then it was not open and i try to get David not to come to ss15 but it was to late. So we two decided to just eat breakfast at a coffee shop near by. And then just go home after that.

Thought i would receive a call from Jay, whether he wanted to eat with me and David. But turns no calls. So went home and just sleep till it was time to go for Acts 2:42 in Aunt Jolene house. Had a late lunch at Aunt Jolene house. The meeting is to discuss some stuff and planning. It ended quite early thought i could go for basketball. But they had something cook up for me. jay and David kidnap me, blind fold me and drove around in USJ 16. It was quite easy to tell that i was still in USJ 16 cause of the many turns, and 'short traffic light stops' and going quite slow. But it was fun. They drove me around for 15minutes. And make me walk blind folded. Enter into the house and i had to do some test. Which Jay just cook up in the last minute. It was to eat cat food. But i insist no. So it end up to just lick the cat food. Which taste and smell bad. Gross. So why did they do this to me. Cause they would like to appreciated me for all the hidden effort i done in church and in peoples lives. Which I'm truly deeply touch. My heart was melting with the words of appreciation came out from their mouths. Thank you guys, I'm will remember today. The only set back was i already know what they going to do to me already. haha. Cause i think that Zach Siow accidentally send me a email on this. I was so tempted to read it and yes i fall into it. But I'm truly bless with the people I'm around with. Even though i know the plan but i still like it. It was still a great surprise to me. Again, Thank you guys.

I had fun. And enjoy myself a lot. Besides that, today i went to cybercafe for the first time in a long drought since every one stop playing Dota and all. So today just went there to play Dota, i know it is a old game. But old games are at times still fun. 1 win and 1 lost. Just a game. =) I enjoy myself there, it was fun and the experience there is quite different. Like people really blast their speakers and it is so hard to heard the person next to me speak and is just different. Can't explain, go there yourself. hehe. Went to Old Town, to eat supper and then came home.

Today is a good day. Been bless by people. And had fun. And make other people laugh. Mission complete for today.

A smile today, keeps the sadness away,

Jam Pack!!

Hey,

Church day today. It was great and always fulfilling. I started out by not wake up to the alarm but to my in build body alarm. And i knew is going to be a great day. When to church, very thing turn out good. Pretty happy, how Gavin did the PA. In though there was some small hiccups with the speakers but all is good. Uncle Henry preaching was also very detail and easily to understand. Can't really remember much. But is good. Note to Joel Toh: please do yourself a flavor and start taking down notes during sermon. Anyway after service was sword class. And is life trek 2. It talks about very important issues that this world are asking from us Christians. Today topic is about "who is the devil". Even though i learn this in Tung Ling. But is good to be reminded again. Good stuff. I would be deeply be encourage went the youth start attending Sword class. Cause it helps build your foundation in Jesus Christ. You learn things that will build your faith. And it would be easier for you to talk about Jesus Christ to your friends. Fun time.

Then after church, when to Rock Cafe with some of us. And had a quite a good conversation. After that when to basketball. Basketball was so hot. At 4pm it was still sunny and blazing hot. Uncle Phua say that day was about 40°C. Till like 530pm and it started to be much cooler. I really enjoy today's basketball. Cause a old friend today came. And i think my game have sought of improve. One think i remember in basketball was i did a ankle breaker on Prabu(the ice-cream man) and score. i was so happy. And i mark him deep till he can't even get a single ball on his hands(i know what you guys are think, horny monkeys). Play till 730pm, guess that everyone was tired, must be the weather. hehe is funny. Rain we complain, hot also complain. Man we are to temped. Oh well, nothing that can really control the weather, unless we are all pray for the same thing, cool weather and cloudy. =)

So my parents were not around today and tomorrow cause they are going to Seremban to go for some kind of seminar. So home alone. besides that, i had no dinner and i ask Zack Mok whether he want go Murni, he wanted but the others don't want. So it was just the two of us. In the end we decide to go for ipoh chicken rice in ss15. So i thought to myself, think that it would be a date today. It turns out, Not. I receive a call at 740pm from David and David also say that his parents are also not around. So he wanted to join us too. Then David also told me that Daniel was home alone and just take him out. So in the end it turns out 4 people. hehe. After the dinner, Me, David and Daniel went to Parade just for a walk. Cause we were waiting for Jay to finish his dinner with his parents. So we went to the Nike store and to Toy 'R' Us. walk till all the shops close. And it was still early like 945pm. So went to suku, for a small supper, with Jay and KJ. Watching football is exciting and boring at the same time. Some times i thing that football should at a new element to the game, which is fighting. Since football player like to rant to the other player, they should fight. It makes the game even more exciting and people would bet more. hehe.

Lastly my day end with Jay, David and me coming to my place to watch a movie. We watch 'Snatch', actor Brad Pitt and other famous actors. Is quite a good film. It has it laughs and serious. Not bad. My day ended at 2am. Which i was super super tired. i couldn't up my eye after the show. That is why i couldn't post this up yet in time. So here you go.

Records,

Swift Moment

Dello,

I had a great day today. Thank You, God for another great and awesome day. The weather was so good that it didn't rain at all. And i woke up early to play some great great basketball. Playing outside my house has become a norm for me, and people are starting to remember me. Like the aunts, who do the line dancing and some neighborhood kids too. The people that see me daily think that i don't go to school, so they give me that look. Like why is this kid so naughty, never see him go to school. Oh well, i just smile and continue doing my training anyway. Is great playing in the morning. It makes me feel so healthy and my face skin even look nicer. Hehe. Is great meeting kids in the morning to play with sometimes. These kid are like 11-15 years old. And the good things is they still call me "Brother" in Chinese. So these kids has become my daily trainees. Is good to see kids wanting to play good basketball and be a head on the game.

Everyday if i see them, they will be so excited to know more stuff on basketball. Want to know how to shoot, pass, dribble and etc. The passion in them, just brings back the passion in me again(not that it die but more than before). And the slight down side is that they believe in me. Not that I'm lying to them. Okay the story beings with them asking me whether i would make it to the NBA or EURO, that they see on TV. And i told them that i would one day. Do you see. I'm giving them faults hopes, they see me as their role-model. And what if i don't make it to the NBA or EURO. I told them another things is that don't except. Cause it can let you down. But they continue to give me that smiley face of theirs and play on. Is great, really great.

Hopefully there will be a day that i will tell them about Jesus(or they are already Christian). Who is my role-model? Many do not know. The role-model that i mostly follow his ways are Michael Jordan. He is the one that inspired me to play this game. I know he isn't a Christian. But i like the attitude that he always give out which is passion. I'm a type of person that will give out a 100% to everything. No half-hearted in anything i do. I want to deliver the best in any situation that i have to perform. I got other role-models. Michael Jordan is one of them. I know that i don't move like MJ or talk like MJ or whatever MJ. But the attitude that i see. He is the one that make wanna keep on moving forward. WOW

So i hope that i be the strong leader for these kids i know in USJ 11. Hope i be a great role-model for them. Time to sing the "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley. hehe.

Love Life,

CopyCat

Hi,

Guitar Hero copycat this show "Risky Business"
Acted by Tom Cruise
This one is Kobe Bryant, Alex Rodriguez, Michael Phelps, and Tony Hawk
Just for laughs
Enjoy

Dots

Hi,

My time is up. Everyday i think to myself, my purpose of living is to give glory to God. Things in my mind are beginning to make me crazy. A psychotic person i have become. Every person i turn to have face the other direction. They hide away. What real-ness i am be. I wish at times that death be faster on me. Leaving this world is good enough for me. Wishing to murder myself is such a ugly scene. I shall not do it, is such a ugly scene to do it. People around me will cry if i do it. Truly i have become schizophrenic. There to many things speaking in my head. I can't take it no more. I'm not healthy in the head. Seeing to much imagines is scary enough, it has become to real.

At times wish that all this is not real. I want to live myself. Every day i pass by myself sitting in the tree with a swing singing "ring a ring a roses". Scarring myself. What have i become? I want to live a tale behind me. I want people speaking of me. What have i become? Think of God and me seems so peaceful and real. Is like i can almost touch God. His cloths is soft as silk. His presences, destroying the darkness with His glory. To real, to real. What i have become? to think that i have no friends. Have i care for him/her the same as myself? Have i not share my life with you? have i give? have i help? What have i become?

This world spinning around me. It seems not real at all. Life seems so hard. And others is easy. Seeing what I'm not suppose to see, has been seen. My brain cells are not connecting with each other no more. Cause they love each other no more. The cells has a brain of itself. My heart beat, beats at every second. The seconds go by. Till it sounds like techno music. My eyes are scanning every person i see. What they truly made off? my hands and legs move, till it can move on it's own. My stomach has a mind of it's own. It tells me when it's hungry or thirsty. Going to toilet to pee or shit never seems so exhausting. Many times in my life i thought that I'm in the matrix. I'm willing to be plug out. And live a real life.

I guess this is a real life, where i can't run from. I can't change the past. Is only the present and the future. Living life. Can't get into comfort in life. Always on your toes. Like cling for dear life. I'm a unit, ready for war. Like Jason Bourne, always running to know his true identity. I'm searching to succeed in life. I must. destiny awaits for me. I shall walk through my mountain. And shall not be over come by the mountain. I will take what is rightfully mine. Life. Thank you God. Just speaking my heart out. clear mind.

Day

Hello,

My day is good. Whole day play basketball. So fun. The weather today was just plain awesome. Got to enjoy it. Play basketball non-stop. Play till afternoon then went for lunch, rest a bit, then off to the court to play some more. till like 2-3pm i came back home to shower and rest. But it was totally good day. Woke up like 8am till 2pm. WOW. just awesome. Thank You, God for providing such great great great weather.

Today i also want to talk about fish. Well, fish is quite a dumb creature. Easier get caught by smart fisherman. But Internet fish is smart. They are always happy, and they come in different color and size. i show you my aquarium. =)

Such a happy fish

Shitting cars,

Amuse?!

iello,

Things around me are moving slower that usual. Every time i blink, there is nothing change. But when i turn around things change. I'm riding in this journey of floating is a good as coca-cola on ice. Anyway, i just don't know what i just type...some full of crap. Didn't do much, when for training in the morning and watch some movies in the afternoon. And a whole lot of YouTube videos. Mostly my day think, are blank. Well, that is for bumming for 2 years.

what i can cook up is that been reading some devotion material and reading some old books that my father has. Well many of you guys know that I'm not a book person. So mostly i read and just fall a sleep. But i will finish it soon. That is why i think my English just suck. In need to improve. hehe.

I got nothing much to post up today. Just waiting for friday, Life group. So see you people tomorrow if you come to my life group. Or see you on Sunday. =)

zzzzz.....

Sound Check?

Jello,

World around is spinning in a fast rate and all just go vomiting out.(just made out that line). I woke up the sounds of birds chipping away by my window. It was adorable to here, almost like music. i also woke up to the turning of my air con by my parents. Cause it was a big day today. I didn't get to see the birds that was chipping away by my window, maybe is a mocking bird? Oh well. So i when to see the doctor to do a blood test. And i can say the doctor has really good hands. I didn't feel a single pain when he poke my skin to get the blood. But it was painful when he took it out. It was almost like a ant bite. Thank you doctor, you got great hands.

After that, came back home. Didn't have much to do. i was walking around the whole day. up and down. Just to pass the time. It was quite boring. Until my little nephew came. Seeing him now at 1 years old. Just brings back memories when i use to live in Shah Alam. I can't remember much of that place. But i know is a super huge big place. If only i remember the address. hiaz...have to ask my mom for the address that we live in Shah Alam. I know one thing for sure that we live inside together with the Prince. (i don't know what prince). Is true okay. You can ask my sisters or my parents. Is true. I so love that place i live. It was huge and so many rooms and every thing there was huge. Only one sad thing was the death of our dog. What a tragic.(don't want to share). sad. Okay, back to my nephew. Seeing him now, he can do a lot of things now. Mostly crawl a lot. I can start to imagine him went he is two years old, by then he would be able to walk and run. He is going to be fast. I think in a way, he sought of like me.

Enough of my nephew. Today my devotion is a silent. I didn't go out to do my devotion this time. I felt that God wants me to stay in my room and just meditate on His Word and on Him. It is tiring. Sitting in the middle of my room. And just fading away from reality. Hearing my heart beat and to the sound of the water drips. Clearing my mind and focusing on God. Is just amazing. I didn't want to pray to Him this time, cause i think i have enough say to him. This time i just wanted to listen to Him. Letting Him work His power upon me. At this time also, the only scripture that came into mind was Psalms 23

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

meditating on the Words. One by one. Just reliefs me. And is just so peaceful. I was just dreaming with God. Letting Him carry me in His scriptures. This is really the Living Word. It is really life. The bible that God gave man, is truly powerful. Then after the meditation, i end of with a song Heart of Worship. It just connects so easily. And singing it so slowly. The words in the song. Just touching. God is really amazing. Can't explain in words. Just WOW.

When for worship practice today, and it was great to see MK and SB back. And a new face in the PA section. Welcome you, Gavin into the team. Went there to help out Gavin. Worship practice today, feels very worshiping. It felt not like a practice session but more of a time of worship. Seeing the band now, they have really grown so mature in music. And they flow so easily together. Keep it up.

Tonight i watched Gossip Girl so2e07 - "Chuck In Real Life". This episode i like the most. Haven't watch yet. I won't say much. Gossip Girl, is like becoming apart of me. Well maybe cause i got no real girl friends. That is real close to me. like best friends. I guess that i'm not cool for people. haha. Or i'm to cool for you people. Hehe. Should watch this episode. =)

I'm thinking of starting another blog. Well see how it goes.

Bannana Split,

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Live Up!

Zello,

A lot things are happen in these past few days. And i have become so involve with so many church work that is on my shoulders. There are the DD team building, October Outdoor games and C2U. And i like it. It makes me feel that i'm apart of the church. And i have very good responds from my email on the team building for DD(Discovery Days). And seeing the whole church working as a team. To help people around us to know Jesus Christ through us.

This seems like Acts 2:42-47, happening all over again. Which is good. And it should be like this forever. Where all believers of Christ be united as one body of Christ. Serving others and helping other to know Jesus Christ as their personal Savior.

Acts 2:42-47,

42They devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer.
43Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles.
44All the believers were together and had everything in common.
45Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need.
46Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts,
47praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

if you have read my old post on the 5P. You will understand better what i mean. Click Here to read the post i posted.

Anyway, been busy with this planing stuff. But mostly my day was lazying around. Watching a lot YouTube videos. Just to pass the time and have good laughs. And also been reading up on marvel comic heroes bio. Which is so interesting and helps me understand the Marvel Universe better. Besides all that i receive a call today from the doctor, that i should take my another injection. Which also was important. So tomorrow i have to go see doctor. hehe.

Slowly my days on Malaysia soil is fading away. Saying my goodbyes to Malaysia would be easy but saying goodbye to the people i know is most hardest. I wonder what would i say. best way to find out is to wait for that day. Going to America is like a dream come through. Wishing that America is dreaming of me.

Picky

What A Play!!!

Is quite cool

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My Poster...

Deadpool.
crazy guy.
and really funny guy.

In A Box

Yello,

Very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very sleepy day. I didn't wake up till 3pm today. And this sleep was want of the best sleep i ever got in ages ago. And had want of the most wild and weird dreams i could dream off. After my sleep i couldn't open my eyes cause of the crying i had last night. Must be the eye dirt. I had a good cry. I feel at peace now....lalalllallalalalalaa

Okay back to the dream. what was i dreaming about? I dream i was a super hero like deadpool. YAY deadpool. For those who don't know who is deadpool. Here is deadpool. Anyway, I went through so many fights, and being a psychotic dude. I was like over powering people. And bad gus just coming and coming. And me, alone, fighting all this bad guys not stop. until the dream was change that i was in my room typing this post and suddenly Jay knock on my door and ask me to help him change his blog HTML of this blog. Like his color and so on. hehe. Then i dream of i was in a date with.....the face was blank. but i saw the hair and it was blonde. and a very nice shape body. WOW. i couldn't hear what i was calling either could i hear her speak. But i know mostly i was gazing at her. After that date, we went to see the sun set. And it is the end of my dream. i didn't wake up yet. Just everything just went blank. Pitch black. except that went you close your eyes then you see those things floating and doing so abstract art.

Woke up and eat lunch, after 3 hours of wake time i went back to sleep. Woke up again at 730pm to realise that my parents when off for dinner, so i have to eat alone. And now i'm typing here, bloging to you guys about my day. So now good night. And enjoy more random episode of deadpool coming up and i can't wait to watch Gossip Girl.

xoxo, gossip boy,

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Fill with Sadness...

Emoish people,

I'm very very sad today. Cause my day start out good but end up bad. I nearly cried in church. And really wanted to cry. Tears just want to burst out. Heart torn in to a billion pieces. I woke up this morning at 605 am to the sound of the RA2 theme song(Red Alert 2). Immediately i fell in me fill with heavy-ness. Just don't know why. But i know that some thing is going to go wrong today. So i did my routine wake up thing to prepare for church. And i thought this feeling will go away. At the same thing trying to act happy and fill my head happy thoughts. But was not working. Deep down in me just keep on growing with sad-ness.

So went to Suzanne house for prayer meeting. And had a great time of prayer. But i was still fighting this feeling. Not a sound of words, did not come out for prayer. Except for Suzanne asking me to prayer for health-ing on our people. Other than that, the feeling just keep on growing and growing and growing. Is so hard to start a Sunday feeling like this. Went to church on time to set up the PA and turn on all the air-conditioner and lights too. I just wanted to start crying when i was alone in church, no one was there in church yet till David and Jay arrive. Is so hard to contain it and let it die down. Just cannot take it, when starting my Sunday like this.

Around 845am, went out, so that i can clear my head with this kind of thoughts. Look at the sky, look at the ground, look at the road, look at the cars, look at people passing by, look at people come in to church, look every where but still no result of change in emotions. Just wanted to sit on the curb and just sobbing away like crazy. And don't care whether people see me in that state. So many aunts and uncles pass by me and say "how are you? you look tired, are you alright?, is every thing fine?" and what i gave "I'm fine" with a fake smile. And they walk away. I just could run away with tears following down my chicks. Couldn't take it. I make everything today with dramatise. And make every one to believe that I'm fine. But i was not at all. Cause this heavy heart of mine, it turns out to be really bad. Is a call in the morning and is your parents calling you. What a day to start with.

My parents was furies behind the phone, i try to be calm as possible. They were like throwing tantrum at me every seconds. They were vehemence. in that phone call, i was just facing out, and the cloud of tears just want to flow. What were they ferocious about? The story beginnings with Saturday night. Where i have the usual Saturday night movie. So as usual i borrow my parents projector. I have been doing this every Saturday night. Is nice to have fellowship with my friends that they are like family. (this fight has nothing to do with you guys that attend my house to watch movies, so don't worry). This super big fight because of one wire that i switch bags with. Is a VGA wire, for connecting the projector to pc/laptop. To me is not a big a deal. But my parents have to make it a deal. Because that today, they have a marriage seminar to conduct. And the projector they use is my mom's want. And the Saturday night, i use my father projector but my dad's projector didn't have the VGA wire, so i borrow it from my mom's projector. The conversation didn't went well. It is so hard to live with it. The worse thing is that my dad is even more anger than my mom. My mom was talking to me, their seminar is at Shah Alam. My mom just want me to do a simple task is to drive to Shah Alam, where my sister and Uncle Beng work there. But you see i forgot how to get there. hardly been there. So another scolding from mom. Even more worse is that while calling to my mom, in the background my father was also scolding me, And this is you will never heard a pastor say, calling names at me. (i won't tell what names it is).

Anyway, my dad ask me to say sorry and all is forgiven. But i can't take it. You have destroy my life and my heart so pain. A tear drop from my face. In the end, they didn't ask me to go Shah Alam but they went back home and collect it from my room. My day is torn up to many bits. Can't enjoy it. So hurt.

To tell you some thing from the inside that no one know. You think that a Pastor kid is the most obedient, most love by his parents. To tell you the truth, in what I'm living now.(other PKs might be different, so don't treat all the same). I'm so pressure. My dad is a person is a very stubborn and he want things his way and there is no other way. In other to love him, we have to meet his standards. Which is so high.(me and my sisters, can testify). One time you drop your guard down, you be dead, and you have to build back the relationship you once had with him. The worse thing is that I'm the only son. which is more pressure is apply on me. What is this pressure? is not peer-pressure, is not aunt/uncle pressure but father PK pressure. What is my father pressure to me? To be the perfect son in the world or church. The one that will set the examples. The one to lead the youth now, last time was in the kids ministry cause i was a kid then. And in the future is to Lead the church. Be the Main man in the church. To take over his position. Which i cannot take it. Is so daunting. i know every day, he prays for me to go into pastoral ministry. To study theology. But i can say that my father is a strong leader. He can really start you projects in the church with just a snap of his fingers. i can say that he has made the church today, CBC, a better church then last time. He build this church with his bear heads. He deserve to be respected by all his members. We should really thank him. And this inside, please don't look at my father as not a pastor anymore. Cause we all are humans. there is no one in this world perfect like Jesus Christ. Don't try to help our family. This is family problems, so it must be solve as a family. So don't try to join in. DON'T.

That is why is so hard for me to live my day everyday. I have to keep on building my standards that have to be met. Is tough being a PK.

Now my mom. My mom is a pure perfectionist. She use to be OCD last time. Now she is not. My mom is a strong supported of my dad. Which is plan me to go for this and that. And she will say this "is for your own good" and it always turn out for the good for me. She is the one that ask me to sign up to this event and that event. And at times she just can be super naggy. But the good thing about my mom is that she keeps me on track.

Okay people, who are reading this post. Please don't join in. I share with you today about this. cause this what happen to me today. I know i share a little bit extra. But just keep it in your heart. And be faithful and continue to pray for all our Pastors of CBC and others too. this is reality, All Pastors are human. They are just servants of God. And they are powerful people to have. To help us live a better relationship with Jesus Christ.

My day to day had just went down the toilet drain. Feeling so ill and emotionally dead. The only thing i can do is to look upon Jesus Christ as my source of strength and help. what is done is done. Nothing i can change the past. But to be better in the future.

I don't want to receive any calls until tomorrow. I don't want to receive any msn chat now too till tomorrow. You can just send me sms message but don't feel sad if i don't reply you back. Cause i just want to cry to sleep. i want it to be out of my system. So tomorrow my day would be a better one. Thank you for your concerns. I do deeply appreciate them. I know that we are family and we help each other. Thank you for your care and your love. Thank you so much.

I'm typing this with tears following. Real men do cry. Again i say Please don't interfere, don't try to "masuk tangan or campur tangan". This is my family issue, so it must be solve in my family.

..............

Yellow Box!!!

Deadpool

The Cure!

Hey,

My time spent today was alright. Didn't do much. Woke up and prepare myself for the injection i need today. So i drove all the way to Puchong to see our church doctor. hehe. So this injection is very very important for me to get. Cause the US government requires it. This drug is suppose to protect my brain for some kinda of virus. Anyway, it cause like 110 riggit for it. So it must be quite important. Note, to people who are going to overseas, make sure that you do your immunizations here. Cause is super cheap here then overseas. Like the injection i got today, in US is worth like 300 US Dollor. Is important.

Anyway, had a great time in my devotion today. Is so exciting to do devotion now. God is just doing His revealing thingy and trying to tell me some inside thing that links to my life. The more time you spent with God, God will reveal your path in your journey with Him.

God want few simple things from us.
1. Obey, Love
2. Listen
3. Do His will

God does do His part. He will helps us in time of need and also anytime. God will bless you.

In the afternoon, when to Sea Park church today. Before that, we all Subang people suppose to wait at Subang Church and go together as a group. But today was very shocking. First that was a super huge jam created at USJ 4 to ss19 and Summit. No idea why sudden got this huge jam. I know the USJ 4 to ss19, there was some kind of car accident. Summit i didn't know much. What i heard about the Summit jam was that the traffic lights not working and there were buses doing some kind of weird maneuver. Beside that, many of us waited at church and guess what hardly any of the youth that need transport didn't turn up. I feel sorry for David. Cause he put so much affort in finding drivers and tell people that need transport to go to church. Oh well, this what happen when people don't want to pay attention to their leaders. And even not telling people that they don't want to come or they already there or so kind of report. So those people who are waiting in church today, don't need to wait for you. Some time i just feel sad that we people should at least take some kind of initiative to do something in our lives. Do take control of your lives, don't let people decide our life.

So enough scolding, today at Youth Combo. Is great. Ps Ryan and his gang. Did their thing. Leading us in worship and yes, of course Ps Ryan preaching to us. The topic today was simple. It is about how to be a contagious Christian. He take it for Matthew 5:13-18, is about the salt and light of this earth. To sum up the message is to be real with people. Talk the talk and Walk the walk. Don't be a two face. Or a copycat. Just be real with people. Be the true Christian for God.
I like what Ps Ryan share about. He illustrate us as a tree. That we are like a tree. And a tree have three basic stuff, which is the root, the trunk, and the leafs.

First the root.
the root is like foundation that we must have.
which is our values and conviction that we place in our lives.
the things we believe in.

Second the trunk.
The trunk is like support. It gives the tree stability.
Which is our character and attitudes.
Is either good or bad.
You see if we have good values and strong convictions then the character and attitudes we have would support our foundations. Is like a pillar in our house.

Third the leafs.
The leafs is like health. It shows whether the tree is weak or strong.
Which is our actions and words.
If you do what you are convicted and have strong character of who you are.
You will be a blessing to the people around you.
You provide the share.

Such a simple message and easy to live by. Hope many of us be that Powerful message for Christ. Remember that God first love us and He loves us so much that He die on the cross to pay for our sins. He committed Himself to us. So we should do the same. So be who you are for God. Be that message for God. Amen

Is going to be a long night and a long day tomorrow. Cause be watching a movie and tomorrow is a Sunday. Which means church and lets be excited and really ROCK the church. Amen. See you guys tomorrow.

Destiny,

Interesting Car Crash

It just shows that people are very crazy car drivers.
But how did they do it? i don't know.
Well just don't end up like them.
Drive safe

Abstract...

Abstract art speaks to me a lot.
it tells me often tells me that life is interesting and complex.
life is great, joyous, and mysterious.
Love doing abstract art.
is fun also. hehe

Dreaming...

Hi,

In my 2 years spent bumming. Is been quite hard at times and easy some times. The hard times are usually when I'm bored. So what i do in my past time. I dream. What i dream mostly about? Hmm...i dream quite a lot of stuff. Good and bad but most good. Mostly i dream that I'm the dude in Matrix the movie...yea, i know neo. Some times the Splinter Cell dude(the game), And most war heroes and mostly also race car driver like Speed Racer.
But this is mostly what i dream the most. Dream that I'm always the hero. I save the world. Kill the bad guy, save the girl. And happy ending. blah blah blah. Is cool to dream. Is the only place where your imagine can go crazy. It can go even more crazy, if you dream of the girl you like, hehe, horny you. So anyway, dreaming is good, it helps you grow in creativeness. Well to say make you more artistic in reality. Just that television and movies has dull this creativeness in us. That is why some of us can't dream much, mostly black or blank. In the old days, where television was not born. People can write hundreds and hundreds of creative stuff. And even come out with crazy inventions. Like cars, airplanes, music, lightbulb and etc. So i guess that we should watch less of televisions and movies and slow go back our creativeness in us again. Of course it won't come back instantly, you have to let it grow. i know some times television and movies can help us come out we ideas, but is it really our own? or we thought up some one old idea? Can't really explain. Only thing to do is Dream

What You Think??

Hello,

So that now Joel blog is now quite dirty. Posting up pictures of the cast in Gossip Girl with sexy pose and some erotic pictures. Hope it didn't make you guys(men or women) horny in anywhere. Was just getting some new Gossip Girl posters. So i found this and it speaks on what Gossip Girl is quite showing on television.

My day has gone quite well again. I have really enjoy my day today. Had a devotion that is quite long about 2 1/2hours. i spent it outside. Went walking around USJ 11. the day was cool and relaxing. I guess that God wants me to relax in His presents. And let the wind play with my hair and let it move me in any direction. Today i saw flowers being lovely and bees too. I saw a lot of bees. They were pollinating flowers. It was so cool, i manage to get in quite close to see how they do it. Thank God that i didn't get sting by them. hehe. The way they did it, is like they are dancing with a partner. Dancing with the plant. And after the dance, the bee flew off. Isn't God just wonderful. Every thing has a flow. Which makes out to be nature. Every thing is like a process. Is so easy. No worries, so calm, and peaceful. No wonder God is the master of His creation and is perfect. Is just WOWs me. Thank You God for showing me this. Amen

My day also was seeing the doctor. had to take some shots(injections) or immunizations. America is so strict in your health. They really want to be sure that you are 100% healthy. They must be really scare that they get another attack of SARS or something new from a foreign country. Oh well is good for my body and my health. I'll be going again to get another injection. Hope I'll be able to drive after the shot. But i know that God will protect His people. So no worries. After that, i send in my application to work in Starbucks. Hopefully i can get in. Just to pass time. But what i heard from Jay that new person that joins Starbucks need to be train at least for 6 months. And i don't have that time. hehe. So i guess try working some where else. Maybe Nike store in Parade. Just to earn so buck. Anyway, i will let God decide and go with the flow.

Today in Life group is good. Even we started late. I really enjoy it. Had strong presents of God in our Life group. Seeing the four of us in this Life group for about 1-3 years already. i can safely say that we have grown so much and mature a lot. Like today's Word, taken from 1 Samuel 16. About David as the chosen King of Israel. It spark off a quite a big discussion. Can't really share much cause is Life group. (personal stuff). I like the discussion we make. It shows a lot. The Life Group is personal.

I'm beginning to like to use this Word. Commitment. Many of us, must know that Jesus/God already committed His life to us. That is how much He loves us. That is how much He wants us. We Christians should be fire up and pump up to do His will, His command. Which is mainly Outreach. Let us live with our actions and words with Life. Let it be something that people see, it is God's glory flowing through us. Let us not be self-centered no more. Lets care for the people around us. And people will do same to you. Let us be real with people. Don't live in hype, cause it can always die down. But live in God's presents. Read His Word daily. Let Him speak to you in those soft Words of His. Obey. Lets be real with God and God will shine through us. And people can't stop it cause is God. All things are possible with God. Nothing is Impossible with God. We will finish this race together. And we end it with even more power. ROOOAAAAARRRR!!!!!.

So see you tomorrow, in YC Combo. Lets be Warriors for God. People that can change the future went we Start Now. Lets be a force for God that people have to reckon with. We speak of the Truth.Amen

Mode dancing,

GG

Gossip Girl has really gone crazy.
Episode s02e06: New Haven Can Wait
was alright, things are still in the clouds, not sure where the show is heading.
So can't wait for so2eo7 to be out on Monday, America time.
You know You love Me.

Feeling Smart...

Hey,

I'm feeling good about myself today. I have a super fruitful day. It starts with training today at 730am, follow with my devotion for 3 hours(it seems that God had me think a lot about). It has been a long time that i have devotions that are 3- hours long. I enjoy my devotion today. My devotion was taken outside that great outdoors. Today weather in USJ 11 was super cloudy and windy. It is fun walking around seeing nature at work with my drawing pad and Nike shades. And just letting God move me with His walks with me.

Today as i was walking along my area. God has let me see a squirrel. The squirrel didn't run away cause it didn't see me. What was it doing? It was cracking so nuts, i think. Cause i saw it holding some thing, and banging it on a rock, trying to get something inside. And it was persistent with the nut. It was banging it for long as 10-15 minutes. And it finally got to eat the nut. I guess what God is saying to me that I have to be persistent in what i pursue. God wants me to reach for my Goal. And my Goal now is my education. My devotion is so wonderful today. Love You, God. You answer prays. =)

Besides that I had to meet up with my mom's friend from America. To give me some input on how is going to be like there and to ask him any questions. So i meet him at Starbucks at Taipan with my mom. In Starbucks i meet this girl i know from our church(used to be in our church), the girl name is Vivien, can't remember her surname. She used to come to our church but their parents had some issues, so they went to another church. So we have a small chit chat. But after that i had a chit chat with the America dude. Got so very good input that i need to know. So this guy is helping me to get some friends there to help me out went i get to US with my stuff and to show me around. So he basically hook me up with some friends there, who are studying in that college too. (So i won't feel so alone went I'm there la, hehe).

After that, went to do some errands for my mom, driving her to bank to bank, and collect some stuff from church office. And also forgot to type this. That I'm going to work for Starbucks, yea they were looking for people to work in Taipan, and my mom was telling me that if you work in Starbucks here, and Starbucks all over the world are the same. So want pocket money, you can work in Starbucks cause after you know how to brew the coffee and the technique are all the same all over the world. So is easy for you to work in Starbucks. So have to send in that applications tomorrow. So i guess that you guys can see me work there in Taipan. hehe. But i only work on weekdays. no weekends or public holidays. And I'm taking morning and afternoon shift. So looks like i can only train in the evening.

Then we came home. Didn't feel tired. I did some changes to my blog. And I'm happy about it. Cause i manage to crack some codes. I feel so smart. Okay. This template is rounders 3. And if you use rounders 1-3, you can't change the bottom sidebar background color. The background color is connected with the Page background Header. So i manage to crack it. How i did it. Well it was quite simple. I crack it through using rounders 4. Yes, rounders 4. Rounders 4 the Header and bottom sidebar is not connected. Why i don't i use rounders 4. The reason is that rounders 4 the Page background Header cannot change but the bottom sidebar can. And i don't like that leaf like picture that rounders 4 has for it's Page Header. So i read up the HTML in rounders 4 and cut and paste what rounders 3 don't have. Then TA DA. My blog is different now. YEA YEA. So you see my Page Header and the bottom sidebar color is different. I feel totally smart now. And is a good feeling. Not proud. Just good.

Make quite a bit of changes to my blog, going to do more or should i not? Well see first la. hehe
In the night at 8pm went out for dinner with my friend. Well had a really good conversation and good time together. Going to meet up again, end of the month to visit the our old school. Is great meeting up with old friend. Get to talk about old stuff and still laugh about it.

So this was my day. Really enjoy it. God i pray that You, give me more time in my devotion. I want to spent more time with You. You and You alone. Give me what You want me to know, so i may gain wisdom and knowledge. And to be a powerful leader for You. God give me strength and energy daily and let me be a Powerful Light to shine on Others to show Your Power that You are God and there is no other gods except You. So i commit this prayer on to You, in Jesus name i pray. Amen

Better days,

Too Good an Argument

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has
with God, The Almighty.

He asks one of his new students to stand and.....

Prof: So you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Prof : Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?

Student : Yes
.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?

(Student is silent.)

Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?

Student : No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From...God...

Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Prof: So who created evil?

(Student does not answer.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?

(Student has no answer.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold

Prof: Yes.

Student: No sir.

(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat.
But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat . We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it .

(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light.... But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir

The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH . That is all that keeps things moving & alive. When you get to your wit's end, you'll find God lives there.

Biggy

Hello,

Is cool to mentor people. Cause the person listen to you, what you have to say about that topic. Is cool. today i got that chance to mentor two people. Which is Randall and Gilbert. What i teach them. I teach them about the PA system and Computer. Why I'm training them. Well they themselves volunteer for the position. And they are willing to learn. And i hope that they can be good and task-oriented people.

Their first lesson, learn how to use the computer. I believe that every kid knows how to use the computer, so the lesson was fast and easy. Hope they master it. They didn't ask any questions, so i think they know what to do and not to do.

I actually really like to mentor someone. But is the person willing to let me mentor that person. I don't want to force my teaching on a person. I want it to be like a relationship. I have been praying to God for long long time, to let me mentor one person. But i guess is not my time to in-part my knowledge to anyone. Maybe because no one sees me as a mentor yet. Still the silent-crazy monkey. Well, i really do want to mentor some one. I think God will give it to me some day. =)

Today i was thinking a lot, about the church and youth. Deep down in my heart, some thing in me speaks of a higher calling. Oh no Joel is going to be a Pastor....AAARAARRAARR!!! Well if it has to be then be it. God is calling me. Every time i think of leading the youth or Pastor the youth and see our church. Is tough. Can't imagine myself doing it. Looks like i have to pray about this. At the same time. Was think to bring the youth to experiences Orang Asli. Bring them into some where technology won't work. And live wild. But it has to be a small group like 12 people or less. Or maybe i get back from US. Orang Asli is always a experiences. Seeing people live without technology is cool. Seeing what they eat, how they hunt, how they worship God. Is just amazing. Bring people inside here, i can see their hearts melt and want to come back for more. I think also that it makes us stronger Christians. Is just amazing. But i ask Ps Mal about this, and he say that another church is going in already. So no point for us going in. Another time will go.

I have to master myself. Be master of my mind and body. and wait upon God to call me.

Thinking BIG,

Lazy Days...

Yo,

Today was quite inactive of me. In the morning was my training. But later in the day, i was suppose to clean my room, well i didn't. I think i got back my lazy bug again. Hate it a lot. I was so lazy that i didn't do much and i slept the whole day after my morning session. So this post is quite brief.

Anyway, in the night. I plan my slot in the discovery days thingy. I'm doing team building, and is my first time. What we going to do for the kids. Can't let it out cause it will spoil the fun. So i have to write a detail report and everything before Friday so Aunt Elaine(Aunt Yat Wah, for those who don't know her other name). That is pretty much my day. See what tomorrow is...

laziness out you go,

Grr...

Hey,

I'm not happy with myself today, cause i didn't wake up for my training, and now my timing is all way off. Angry mode. So i have to do it tomorrow. Today i feel so weak and no mood cause i didn't train. Hate it hate it. Joel you must take control and focus in your life, you only got one shot at this, better make it right. So now i have to train more that usual cause i miss one day. Man, i could i not wake up at 730am. Crap la. Tomorrow must wake up and train longer. Big day tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be a long day for me. Not the training. But going to clean my room and make some changes. Yeap, this is the time, to do some changes to the room. Need to look fresh and clean and beautiful. And at night I'm meeting some one for the States(USA la), this person knows some insides and out on Liberty University. So have to meet up with him and have some chit chat and blah blah blah. Hope this dude can give me some good inputs.

Anyway, I'm off to sleep, training tomorrow and need to be healthy and strong, and able to be dunking. YEA. So i wonder how my new room should look like. Hmm....think later, clean first. Short post, nothing much to talk about, unless you want to see me type out some crap and blah blah. Oh yea forgot, been watching a lot of movies on tv. Shows that i didn't get to watch on cinema. So i watch and some are good, some are bad, and some are ugly, lastly some are just not watchable. Titles? look at your astro book. watch them all i have(not entirely). So now i really of to sleep. Train hard, powerful later. ROAR.

Dunk in motion,

I'm Called

Hmm....Hi,

So so so so so my day is so so so. Church is well good and expressive and exciting. Didn't see some people, which make me sad and unhappy and a lot of whys. Well they will be many because once i find out. What is wrong with church, church is a fun place, where we all can worship God freely with emotions. Heart break when i don't see the regulars to church. Really heart broken.

So church today is good, Ps Mal message is super good, and well polish. Every time i see him peach, he has improve. Keep up the good work Ps Mal. Today was also Pastor appreciation lunch, last time was dinner now lunch, why the change? don't know. But the event was great. Played games, listen a solo, give away prizes, and so on.

This post seems to be quite short, anyway when for basketball, and heart broken again. Cause of rain. I pray so hard for it not to rain and just have clouds, is just not enough to prevent it. Maybe there were more people praying for a rain than people praying for dry weather. Please la people corporate with me here please, It rain for the whole weekdays, Monday to Friday. Can you not pray for rain on weekends. Not enough water is it? Rain water now also not clean, all got acid in it. Rain rain rain. I'm only asking for weekends after the weekends, pray to rain on weekdays. Weekdays got 5, weekends got 2. 5 and 2 no balance la. I let you rain 5 days, give me 2 days of no rain, please.

Beside all this, i have been smsing people about basketball for about 5 years or more. And seeing people just don't care of the sms. Went i sent out, i know i put there "Bball TP 4, see you there, no reply means coming" end up few people coming from my list. I have the right to be disappointed. You know yourself that you are not coming, at least tell me in person or sms me that you no coming. Some time i think why i sms people, they know Saturday and Sunday basketball day, they know the place, and they know what time. I think i should stop smsing, waste my money. Want to know whether got basketball just call me, save my 6 bucks on smsing people on Saturday and Sunday. So don't panic if you don't receive any sms from me on Saturday and Sunday. Just go to the court, don't see me, wait, if to long, call, if not coming, call some one else other than that i should be there every Saturday and Sunday. If you think the sms is good, is like a reminder or something like that. Hiaz...who cares la...Like any of them would see this post. Haha.

Training tomorrow, 730am, not asking you to come, if you come also, doesn't matter to me, cause is training day, training means no playing, means becoming better at it. If you ask me play game, i will get you a straight NO. So if you come, come to train not to play. Training where, behind my house la. ok ok off to sleep already. just very sleepy today, slept at 3am today. Super Joel always full of energy.

Sorry if i post stupid crap here, is that i was typing this in a sleepy mind, eyes keep shutting and head turning turning and going bananas. Good Night

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Alright lets get down into business. My day was is very insightful and inside-ful(there is no such word as inside-ful, but whatever). I wake up to my shock-ness, cause i thought i woke up late but it was only 830am. So went back to sleep. Woke up again to check the time. 1120am. So was time to get up, and i know i had to go some where with Aunt Jo. And i thought that Jay would sms me or call me to let me know in so details but he didn't, no harm done. Just need to make a call to Aunt Jo. This comes the hard part. I think i call Aunt Jo and Uncle Phua a million times, not of them answer their phone. I started feeling desperate cause Jay ask anyone of us to go for this thing and i volunteer to go this thing. Anyway, i was persistent, keep on calling their phone. In the end i made a short prayer and when out to lunch around 1230pm. So i try again, manage to get through. So i speak to Aunt Jo and she say yes that she can pick me and go to the place.

Cut the story short,

This place that i went with Aunt Jo is for our Christmas event that we help out with our friends to volunteer to help several organizations. So this place is call 'Jumble Station'. This place basically sells second hand stuffs or stuff that you don't want already in your house. Make sure is in good condition first. But this place is special cause this place is raising money to help people in poverty. Especially single mom's. This 'Jumble Station' is run by itself, no involvement of church's or other organizations. This 'Jumble Station' is run by a Christian lady, and she is the co-founder. Before she started this, she was a Journalist and a Photographer, if i remember correctly, she use to work for Edge the magazine. Anyway, the store now is fill with a lot of things, for toys to electrical stuff. Okay okay, the main purpose of this store was to help single mom's. This single mom's, their problem is that they have many many kids. How many kids? minimum 3 kids, max you just don't want to know is a lot. So this single mom's is hard for them to support their kids, cause they are earning about 500 riggit to 700 riggit and they are staying in apartments, where the rent is about 250 riggit, and the other money? you know go where food, clothes, phone credits and etc.

So what 'Jumble Station' does is to help them financially. like paying the rent and tuition and so on. There are a lot of more details. Is quite hard to translate into writing. Best is to see the place yourself. This 'Jumble Station' also sells their things in a really low price. Some single mom's buy things there cause is super cheap. Beside all that, if you have any electronic stuff that you have no use for it, you can give it to them, like tv, radio, vcr, dvd, and so on. The most they need is a fridge. Anything electrical is good. Make sure is in working condition and still usable. There quite a number of stores around Selangor. What can do to help? well we still in planing can going to sit down with the leaders and discuss it. You should see the owner, she really have a heart for this people and she is very inpiration to me, hope also to the aunts and uncles who went. Just hear her speak is so full of life, passion and willingness.

So if you want further details, you can go to the website to check out yourself. Click here. So don't throw away any electronic goods. Washing machine and frigde is the most needed and the others are mostly wants. Hearing the stories that the owner tells about this single mom's can make you feel sorry. Well that is why we are helping them during Christmas. This was my day there. is a wonderful to see these people doing God's Work is simply wonderful. If you want to check out the place here is a postcard of the place.

Today i also wanted to play basketball, but the weather force us not too. Oh well today i'm going to pray very very hard that it will not rain tomorrow late afternoon. God is fair enough that You have rain on the weekdays, i pray that You help me by leaving the weekends dry so that i can play basketball and have fun with my friend, the church members. You may rain in the morning but leave the late afternoon all the way to night dry. I believe in You, i commit all this unto Your Name, Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.

Be praying,

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My day is quite alright. The whole day was preparing the Word for my Life group. Not notes, just in how to present it and tell it. Well today Word was from Matthew 25: 14-30. Is the parable of the talent. Is a very good scripture and meaningful. Come to think of it. That God cannot give all of us equal talents. Example all get 5 talents. It cannot be done cause we all are unique and different from each other and talents are the same. And all of us have different ability. To some of us, we can't handle 10, some 4, and so on. Is only when we grow the talent that we can gain a new talent. God always wants the best out of us, and He wants us to be powerful and knowledgeable in all areas in our lives.

The life group today was very interesting. From welcome to Word is all good. Thank God that i manage to get every one to speak their part of what they think of the Word. Which is what i want. I like people to be involve in my Word and see that they understand it. Today in the life group had Marcus join us. And it was a big shock for me and some more is the first time doing Word in front of Marcus. I think it turns out good. (hope i answer the all the questions properly). is good that every one is involve with it. And a lot of interesting questions and answers came out and is a good time of Word. My Word today was more focus on the person with the one talent. Where his guy got the one talent and dug a hole in the ground and leave it till the master came back. So we all know what happen in the end. The servant with one talent, the talent given to the ten talents and this servant with one talent was thrown in to the darkness. Well to me, this is when we Christians are showing a 'tidak apa' attitude. We come to church, like it is a event. And we don't get involve with church. That is when many of us slack of and show no interest in church activity. Where we got talent and just hide it and let those with the more talent gain more. I know it takes a lot of hard work to master a talent. Look at it as a mountain that all of us have to face it. We have to climb it in order to overcome it. Talents is not a problem. the problem is us. We just look at it and just walk away from it. Is not easy, i know, that is why we got friends to help us through it. To learn it and be master over it.

Think this way, after you master one talent, God will give you another talent. Until i can say you are good at every little and big thing. And God can give us that and help us. Through God all things are possible. Remember that we are family, we help each others needs. Like in 1 John 1:7, we are all in the light and we have fellowship together. So your problem is also my problem, lets solve it together. (i know it sounds quite gay) but we are family. We take care of each other. We all Christians are running in this race, lets do it together. Lets master what we need to be mastered. And we can be a powerful testimony to all our friends, that we have many many talents and we can help them gain something, at the same time show them about Jesus Christ and who He is. Let your actions and words be powerful statements of Jesus Christ.

So don't look at others and be jealous or envy around you. But focus on God can do for you. If He gave you one talent or 1/2 a talent be please with it, know that when you master that talent you will gain more and more and more. Before you know it you may have a dozen of talents. God is tell us to be good in whatever area you are put in. If you are a student, study smart, learn, and be good in whatever subject you are suppose to take. At work, give that job the best you can offer. God wants all us to excel and be excellent in whatever you are in. Don't worry if you fall, God is behind us and is ready to push us up again. Lets give God our burden and be free from all things.

Power is in you, use it

Uniquely me and you,

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