Hi,
Quite a day for me. Did some errands here and there. Is for my visa. I'm nearly to the end already. Is so near yet so far. Got to get it done quick and fast. I'm still having mix emotions. I'm happy and sad at the same time. I'm happy that I'm going to study in US and going to meet you people and start a different lifestyle or just maintain. The sad part is that I'm going to miss the people here and the church here. How i was a huge influence to many. So yea, having mix emotions.
Day by day go by. I start missing people and remembering the time spent with each and everyone i know. Is hurts so deep to not see the faces for a long time. Well i will remember you guys by memory and by heart.
So today i did a lot of things. I was excited today cause tonight was basketball, i pray for good weather and hope it doesn't rain. Anyway, in the afternoon after lunch. My new maid came to me and told me that her hand-phone couldn't work. The buttons were like spoil. So i play with it and try to figure the problem. In the end, i gave up and i told my dad that we need to buy a new phone for her. But my dad being stubborn as usual. Insist that it will work. So he himself play with it and still couldn't work. So he gave me some money to buy a new hand-phone for the maid. So then, i call Zach Siow and Daniel out. We went to Subang Parade to check out some phones there.
Once there, they haven't had their lunch yet. No, choice have to go to McDonald's for lunch. Had a small chit chat. As we were calling, i decide to test my maid phone again. (i believe that God has a strong senses of humor). The phone buttons can work again. I press everything and anything on the phone and it works. I on and off it severe times. And the buttons are function-able again. i laugh about it. Telling God that He has a great sense of humor. I guess God has things install for me. Anyway, so we walk around Subang Parade for awhile. Sent them home. Told my dad that the phone is working again.
i took a nice good evening nap. Woke up just in time for dinner. Had dinner with Philip and Zach Siow. The food in ss14 the store near the BP station. Just takes to long. Waited like for 45 minutes for your food to come. Went we wanted to leave, the weather started to change. Man. God today, is just humorous. Thought it was going to stop already. So we went to ss18 court to play basketball. Played like less then hour it started to rain heavily. I think to myself, Why God. Such nice weather today, and You have to rain everyday? Well God is God. Can't blame Him. So we end up going to Suku for some small drinks and have a bit of catching up.
I'm going to rest my head now. Maybe i wake up a bit later to do some stuff. i guess is nighty night now.
Catching it,
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
History...
Hi,
Been think about my pass. How i was as a kid, and now, what i have become. As i see it, it is a total change and is almost like a 180° change. Thinking back, i feel so less lively and gave a whatever attitude to things around me. i know many of you saw me last time, i was a lonely kid, mostly angry and emotionally dead. i didn't want to be involve in anything that involves church related. I didn't like what the older people look at me and how they treat me. I didn't want to be around Christians. Cause i felt that I'm constantly judge by people. The feeling is so pressurizing. I felt so box down to almost worthless. I keep asking myself that time, "why am i a Pastor Kid(PK)?", "i wasn't ask to be one".
Even at home is a different feeling from church. At home mostly i didn't get to have fun with dad or mom. Know why? They are at work. Busy with that and this. Mostly i was taken care by my aunts and my grandma. I can almost say that i didn't felt love. Thank God for loving sisters i have. i didn't have many friends in school or in church. Only a few. Having friends also, they were not close friends.
At a very young age, i started thinking of committing suicide. But fail to do it. I believe is God that stop me from doing it. Thank You, God. And then there was a standard that i have to follow. people that set for me. Parents and church people. Just want to leave this world, couldn't take it no more. Is so hard to be love and care.
I had to out think myself. And live a different life style. i thought to myself, if you can't fight as well join it. So i started, being involve with church. Slowly building myself up from the ground. killing my old self. My old self, maybe i was to narrow minded, to hard on myself. Once i started knowing people personally, i felt better of myself.
I knew that God has begun to work in my life. Cause i went Him in my life. Till now I'm growing to be a better person everyday. Learning from my mistake and wanting more of Him. I hope that will be a great example to many and role model. My life back then, seeing it, is so crap. Now is a new beginning. A better me.
Unique,
Been think about my pass. How i was as a kid, and now, what i have become. As i see it, it is a total change and is almost like a 180° change. Thinking back, i feel so less lively and gave a whatever attitude to things around me. i know many of you saw me last time, i was a lonely kid, mostly angry and emotionally dead. i didn't want to be involve in anything that involves church related. I didn't like what the older people look at me and how they treat me. I didn't want to be around Christians. Cause i felt that I'm constantly judge by people. The feeling is so pressurizing. I felt so box down to almost worthless. I keep asking myself that time, "why am i a Pastor Kid(PK)?", "i wasn't ask to be one".
Even at home is a different feeling from church. At home mostly i didn't get to have fun with dad or mom. Know why? They are at work. Busy with that and this. Mostly i was taken care by my aunts and my grandma. I can almost say that i didn't felt love. Thank God for loving sisters i have. i didn't have many friends in school or in church. Only a few. Having friends also, they were not close friends.
At a very young age, i started thinking of committing suicide. But fail to do it. I believe is God that stop me from doing it. Thank You, God. And then there was a standard that i have to follow. people that set for me. Parents and church people. Just want to leave this world, couldn't take it no more. Is so hard to be love and care.
I had to out think myself. And live a different life style. i thought to myself, if you can't fight as well join it. So i started, being involve with church. Slowly building myself up from the ground. killing my old self. My old self, maybe i was to narrow minded, to hard on myself. Once i started knowing people personally, i felt better of myself.
I knew that God has begun to work in my life. Cause i went Him in my life. Till now I'm growing to be a better person everyday. Learning from my mistake and wanting more of Him. I hope that will be a great example to many and role model. My life back then, seeing it, is so crap. Now is a new beginning. A better me.
Unique,
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