Friday, July 24, 2009

Missing You and You, Family.

Hey,

Another day gone just in the thought of it. I got up to the thought of nothingness floating in my mind. Knowing still that i can't sleep by the day because the mind is active again. I move myself out of bed. Slowly inching my way to the side of the bed. Trying to feel the floor with my toes. The floor was cold enough for me to put back my feet into the blanket again. I did this a few times till i was fully awake.

I had a great hot shower. In the toilet there was full of singing. Songs of my own and spiritual. Gradually my i began to think of things. After showering, i prepare myself for the time ahead of me. I did some skillfully work on my father's new toy. The laptop.

Many thoughts still running through my mind. It been talking to me since i showered. Thoughts that are not for me but other people. Other people that i miss most so dearly now. People that i know, care, love, and friend. How it so much that i miss them that it sours my heart when i don't see them. I want to be able to call them by name. I want to hug them as tight as i can to show my love.

You will always be on my mind till the day you are back here. My love will grow even strong till I'm able to see you next year. As i beginning thinking of this, tears round down from my eyes and the tears meet together at my chin. It flow continually for hours. Tears that i miss you guys so much. The times we spent together in church, supper, and else where. You have become part of my family. I treat you like my brother or sister. i miss the countless talk that mean nothing most of the time. Random acts for fun sake.

Laughter. Sadness. Peace. Greatness. Encouraging. Motivating. Love. Helper.

Hope to see you all next year.

There was more thoughts that came into my mind. Thoughts that are kept for my two beautiful sisters and their family. How both of them so differently in character and attitude have change my life to become who i am now. My sisters were more then sisters. They were my closes friends. Someone that i can lean on went I'm in trouble. Someone that help me through thick and thin times. Someone that showed love went it was time for discipline.

They did the impossible. They created the path hard for me to learn wisdom.

Each of my everyday, i learn to not to miss you but it is hard to not miss you two because you two are my sisters. I have many things to say but i think i shall keep it for you two to hear in person. There will be a time where we will be together as a whole big family. Many hugs will flight here and there. Kisses to be made. Knowing deep down. Love pull us together.

This day i have thought of two kinds of people. Friends. Family. How both are so very similar that they seem as one. Both have thought me to be great. Both have made me a strong person.
I thank God for this thought that He has given to me. He knows the deepest desire in my heart. He knows how much i miss those people.

Love does not forget.

The time has come for me to travel. I'll be going to church for life group. I'm in full spirit. I have the greatest feeling that powerful things will happen today. I gather the people that needs pick-up. I rush to church because i wasn't late but excited.

Prayer rushing through my veins. Most of my time in church today, i spent praying in tongue. Welcome to Word was expectantly good with the strong senses of Holy Spirit in the move to touch hearts.

After life group. Dinner at Aunt Jolene house. i had a meat ball that disguise itself as a fish ball. Later i went out again to have ramil burger at USJ 2. =)

Now I'm back hopefully tired now. Ready to hit the peaceful ocean blue bed that will crandle me to dreamland.



Yours sincerely,

1 comment:

julie7 said...

i so often think about u too!! it's been really good to know you more through yr blogs...keep da blogging alive..i feel that's our only connection for now. wished u were going to be there in october when i get back...maybe next time?
just wanna let you know that i often think of you and read yr blog and you too make a part of who i am today. hugsss ;)