Like a Floating Leaf

Hey Fellow Readers,

It has been awhile that i have post something here. heh...
A little something about how i am now. I'm doing pretty good. School is bit tough on me because i'm having exams now. I have two more exams to take: Exercise Science 101, and Bio 213
I'm stressing much over my bio exam. there is so much information to take in for this final exam. It is everything that i have learned over the whole semester. Crazy huh?

Other than stressing over exams, I am really excited to go back home during Christmas. Get to see family and friends. Good to always see familiar faces.
My relationship with God is great unique experience. My journey with Him is just breaking new ground. I belief He has laid the foundation in me and now is building a structure in my heart.
My thinking, attitude, character has become more concreted in His truth.

Besides news about me, i have been following the NBA news. i'm such a big fan for the game. There is too much news surrounding Christ Paul now. The poor fellow has to endured much pain from the league because he is currently not allow to be traded. He was suppose to be traded to the Lakers. This is blockbuster deal. The league, NBA, deny of this trade simply saying "basketball reason."

Basketball reason is nonsense. The league is just afraid that it will turn out to be another power team like Miami. Dumb. Real Dumb.
I can only shake head at this deal. It is really a wrong move from David Stern (NBA boss).
I don't want to go any more deeper with this issue.








I'm glad that i'm coming from home. First Christmas back home. So exciting!!!!

love

Days to Memories.

Hey Fellow Readers,

I have been to few dark spots in my life this year.

Receiving so many flash back. 

The horror past creep back up to me brings chills to my spine. 

I do not want to remember my past.

I want to learn from my past to do better in my future.

Where are my friends when I need to comfort.

Do my friends know me well enough to call me their dear friend 

or  am I just another friend to be used to do things for others.

Loneliness knows how to come back up huh.

I sick of this already.

I guess I never took the time to invest my life with people around me.

Many times i wish i have mentors to guide me.

Have I not been open about my life to others.

My heart break everything  when others don't grow.

I cannot belief. 

So....

My school life is making me busy. 

I have a tight schedule with work just pile up 

Do pray for me.

That i will be on top of things with school work and exams. 

I want to finish strong. Giving glory to God the results that He wants me to have. 

Please pray for me. 

Another note...

I'm coming back for Christmas. 

Till then. Next post. 

Nighty night.

love,

The Great Awake

Hey Readers,

This year is my junior year in university. They say junior year will be the toughies year. Seems to be very true. The work load is different. Understanding of the subject is different too.
I have been studying my brains out this whole semester. I thought I was going crazy. But now many things have die down and the pace is more light. Hopefully it stays that way. I want to finish school badly though yet at the same time I want to continue to study. Wanting the best of both worlds.
In my times of study, i have grow more to understand God's Word better. Like when I read a portion of scripture or a chapter i'm able to understand the author's background and with wisdom know what God is talking about.
I guess God has bless me to know his Word proper but special thanks to Liberty.
(side track: Liberty University is a great place to get an education. The teachers here are in love in God and passionate in their teaching. The best part is that the teachers incorporate their lessons with God's true. Liberty University makes sure you are in track with God's Word.)

The more I think to myself. I really want to get a degree already. Do the work that God has called me into and let Him guide my steps.
I like it here. Life here is a little lay back. However, no place is better than home. Well i would like to work here for a long time and retired in Malaysia. But i cannot see to far in the future. I must let God be my guide. (Proverbs 3:4-6).

I'm trying to keep this blog alive somehow. So i'll try to post whenever i can. till then God bless.

Joel

It Got to Me Softly

Hey readers,

Studies got the best of me. I have become a slave to it. My time is surrounded by it. The call of study is so tempting. I cannot run away from studies. It needs me as i too need it.
The books filled with knowledge messages my mind to the fullest. i cannot help myself but have knowledge. Everything is a past to me.
I do not know how to speak no more except to study.
The voice calls me day and night. Await me to hold it close to feel the beating heart.

My eyes have been glued to the letters in each book. Making sure i spell rightly the word in each class. I cannot do anything else. It does not allow me too. The world is in my past. A slave i have become. What i have done to myself. Surrounded by this temptation i cannot take no more.
I cannot escape from it. My future depends on it. What must I do?
My heart cannot feel no more. The love of my life has disappear like a paper cut. I cannot run. I cannot hide. I cannot fight.
What must I do?

Studies have won the battle of my heart. Buried in the books that tempt me. Each words are binding to my hand and feet. Slows me down in each step i take move away for it.
What must I do?

i see my hands no more. i write on myself in order feel again. Letters i recognize that use to be life to me. Each day i remind myself Life goes on.
What must I do?

Papers to write. Names to remember. Pages to read. Knowledge to know. I cannot handle no more. A slave i become. There's no rest. There's no love in books.
I do not remember myself no more.
What i have become i do not see.
Tears roll down my cheek each hour.
Feelings i do not understand no more.

How to live again?
What is love?
What is joy?
What is me?
Is this depression i see?
It cannot be...

Studies Studies you got me. Reading has become me. Knowledge has become a memory.

I have to get back to books. It lures me into it. I cannot fight it. Prayer i seek. Help!!!

The Dug Hole.

Hey Readers,

I'm running out of stuff to write. haha
College has been very pushy with me. The amount of work required for each class is just crazy. It just makes me to have no life. I got four exams this week. I'm so not prepared for it. Just not prepare. Do pray me people.

I need to place down order of my life. Time management. Follow it like a routine-ness dog. 

I feel my life is spinning out of control. The path the Lord has directed seems blur-ish. I can see just few steps in front of me. I wish that God would just tell me and give me assurance.
However, i belief deep down in me God is test me in my faith and trust because He wants to take my deep in the relationship with Him. Pray for me please.

Other in my mind.
I want to go back home. I miss having Christmas at home with my family and friends. I like having Christmas here and all but nothing beats home. Everyday i think of home. home sick.

Anyway, I love you guys, pray for me and God bless.

love,
Joel

A Whirlpool of Emotion

Hey Everyone,

My school life this semester is going pretty alright. I think i have most of my class under control and keeping up with my homework on top.

Exam week is coming up in fact is this coming week. I have two exams on Monday, one on Wednesday and one on Thursday. Crazy huh? Do pray for me.

okay, i have a question. There this person in class that i want to ask out. So what do i do to ask that person out?

love,
Joel

Jesus Christ loves you ;)

Back to Reality

Hey everybody,

WOW. i haven't been in my blog for a pretty long time. I think is time for me to bring revival. Rain down fire.

If many of you are wondering where i have been. Here is my input.

During my summer i went back home to Malaysia. It was most needed for me because i was really stress out from my semester at school. I kinda enjoy my summer a little. I did not really relax but i work instead.
The work i was involve was not what i say enjoyable but do-able. I was helping out my mom's friend that does a exhibition every end of July. This exhibition is to promote new AV (Audio Video) products. Many companies around ASIA come to this event.
The work that i was involve was to help the exhibitors to their respective booths and their other needs. Stress. For one thing i'm not an administrative guy.

That was my summer. I did not did anything fun like go travelling or go on a eating spree. (I wish i had though but no time).

Now i'm back at school which started on August. Ever since then i was busy as a bee can get in fact more busy . The classes that i'm taking this semester is Bio 213 and 214 (hardest class ever), Coms 101, Exercise Science  class and Creation Studies and Archery. YES, ARCHERY (always wanted to learn it).
my classes this semester seems easy but they are hard like crazy.

Another situation is i change my major. I realize being in Kinesiology is not leading me to the path i wanted but i change to something similar Exercise Science. I want to go into physical therapy.
I belief that i can help more people there and sharing the gospel there would be a great too.

That's a little something from me today. Hope to post more soon. Anyway another time. Bye

Found...

A fine morning. A new school day have arrive. A new semester. A new start.
The sound of busyness surround me. Freshmen rushing to find their classes. Old clicks have once again reconnected. An indication happiness...
This day was not like any other day. Today got my heart racing. That feeling like you found something beyond yourself. Unusual to your normal likes. Simply a bizarre feeling.

I gather myself to sitting down together with my friends. Not able to pay attention to what my friends have to say to them. The only words that came out of me was "hmm" and "yes" or "no."
Every student was about to settle as the professor walks into the room. Everyone awaits in what the teacher is about to pour knowledge. I could not control my feelings. Butterflies in my stomach has awoken. Feeling of running fever has come upon me. My hands starts to be cold and sweaty.
It is that unusual feeling that everyone knows. It is not a sickness. It is not a high on drugs. It is that feeling that everyone wants to have in their lives.

My blood being to flow streaming hot. The room feels hot.
I could not take my eyes of this magnificent beauty.
Flowing dark blonde hair that have a prefect glow as light hits the hair. Skin that looks as if soft as silk. A face that is just radiant that cute to touch.
The eyes is the one that capture my attention the most. Excellent blue eyes like the ocean blue or sky blue. Eyelids that demand attention for all to see. Every wave of the eyes is simply amazing.
I could not take my eyes of her. Simply beautiful. My heart just cannot stop racing. It is about to jump out of my chest.
Thoughts were running in my head. "Where did this amazing angel came from"
She was sitting in room alone. WOW!!!

I wanted to know her. I wanted to be her best friend. I wanted her to like me.
I bite my lip and tongue every time i saw her. An image her lingers in my mind.
I found the most beautiful girl i have ever seen. (to me, many of you might disagree).

Simple Starts

Hey,

End of day 4 is coming

and

Day 3 is my beginning of my trip back home to Malaysia

Excited as always

I feel that a new beginning for me

another chapter started

Spiritually

and character.

God has truly bless me every semester for me.

I hope that he can bless me

financially.

So i can continue to study here

Anyway

see you all Malaysians

i love you

Jesus Christ loves you

Count Down Begins

Hey,

My days are number till I'm home.

5 more days.

actually 4 more by the time i post this.

can't wait.

excited.

it's going to be awesome

see you then.

love.

Jesus Christ loves you.

Long Time

Hey,

i'm excited to come home soon. School here is coming to a close with exams to wrap up everything. i feel that i have finish this semester strong. i just simply love what the Lord is doing in my life. He is soaking me with His blessing giving me good results.

i simply hope that i can continue to study here. As money is slowly becoming an issue.

One thing i can say that the Lord is good and i will follow Him to the ends of the earth for Him. If His will is for me to continue to study here then He shall provide with the necessary income for me.

Anyway, i'm truly excited to go home in a less than 2 weeks. i cannot stop looking at the clock and days just wishing to go home. Really homesick i guess. What is exciting is the things that i'm hearing about my church. The new ministries that are slowly opening up and people stepping forward into position. Awesome.

Beside with all the good news, there must come with prayer too. The prayer i need are...

1. Pray that i finish this semester strong. i got four more exams to go: creation studies, English, Kinesiology, and Church history.

2. Pray for financial that God would provide and also that the school would open up job spaces for me to take.

3. Pray that whatever i have learn would come to remembrance and i would able to apply it on the exam.

4. Pray for my relationship with Christ that it would be deepen and just be saturated with His understand of scripture.

5. Pray for my well-being.

Love you all. Take care. I will be back soon.

Jesus Christ loves you.

Chosen But Free

Hey viewers,

Recently i have been reading this book by Norman L. Geisler, Chosen But Free, the book is amazingly insightful. This book gives a great view about God is. Every time i read it, it just add more foundation to my faith. The first thing that i want to comment about this book is the amount scripture evidence support use. He wisely use the scripture as what it mean and explain it appropriately. I can see that this guy has a lot of respect for the Word of God.

He writes about God's will and God's sovereignty in how people argue that is not really evident and just superficial. Well that is not the case.

I really agree with his point that God's will is not superficial and the hyper-Calvinsim makes God out to be a God that does not follow His nature. Whatever that God says about himself to be he cannot change that and it will forever be the same. Like God is love or God is omniscience or God is just, etc. All that cannot be change. God does not change for us or what we think God can change. God does not need to change because He is holy and love. So please don't put God in a box. The problem is that we have such a limited view about God.

Another point that extreme Arminianism view causes God's will to be finite like you and me. But we all know that God is omniscient. God does not live in the time we are in because He is the creator of time. Free will is giving from God because he wants us to make the choice in whether to follow Him or not. The problem about this is that is hard to truly understand God. He is too really comprehended. We are only able to see glimpses of Him and His power.

The idea to try to discover God would be a huge dilemma. The evidence from history, philosophy and scripture is not enough. The area on relationship with God’s will and free choice of human beings will remain a mystery. We can try to come up with ideas on the issue but this cannot come with reason alone.

Overall, this book has giving me a great insight to this issue. I feel that if are to really need to know God better. We have to read the Word of God more in-depth with prayer asking the Holy Spirit to guide us and creating a stronger bond with Our God. We have to let God’s revelation grow in us. Questioning the scripture and listening to the Holy Spirit is the beginning in understanding God.

The Mountain from Terje Sorgjerd on Vimeo.

This is just marvelous beautiful

God creation.

The thought that God has put out has just be a awe in wonder.

Amazing.

for more this video click here

Worship in Question

Hey,

I believe about worship to be a personal thing with God. Worship do not just come down to singing praise and hymns songs. Worship should be lifestyle in the Christian life. Worship is something that should be amplify to show Christ in one's life. It is a personal growth in relationship with Christ. It is "how do you show your love for Christ?" to the him (Jesus Christ) and the world.
In this style of worship, everyone who is a Christian has to participate in the church or have something to prove their love for Christ.
I like to see churches to go back to the Bible ways. The 1st century church. Beginning in Acts 2:42-47:
⁴² They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. ⁴³ Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. ⁴⁴ All the believers were together and had everything in common. ⁴⁵ They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. ⁴⁶ Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, ⁴⁷ praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

This shows the ideal church worship setting. We should not be 21st century church with new rules and setting our own ideas about church. We should be a church that centers in Bible foundation and be 1st century church in the 21st century setting.
For every Christian, should be a growing more becoming of Lord Jesus Christ to image him. To grow more in sanctification.
We Christians have to grow from the time we first convert to Christianity because once converted we are like newborn babies.
I like the Biblical truth that my Prof Ergun Caner say about the stages that a Christians should go through. Base on 1 Peter 2:1-10

1. Convert - this stage the convert craves for spiritual milk. And they act like a baby because they are new.
2. Committed - This stage the committed knows how to feed him/her-self like doing devotion, participation in church. Willingness to grow. The act of a youth.
3. Compassionate - This stage the compassionate is willing to share his/her life with others. To do God's work like doing ministry and lead others. The know God deeply. They act like young adults.
   
4. Crucified - This stage the crucified is wanting/letting Jesus Christ guide their life. They give up their rights of their life to just follow Lord Jesus Christ will in their life. They show the importance of Christ more than their life. They act like adults.

The worship that is shown by a Christian is personal. One to one with God. A growing relationship. And as a body of Christ, each part plays an important role. Let's be 1st century church in 21st century. It's time to grow up. Be real for Christ.

Jesus Christ loves you

Total Realization.

Hey,

I have come to notice my relationship with God has great improve. My time spending on scripture is amazing. The memorization on the Word of God not but is better than last year. I dare boast about my God has kept on changing my heart. I begin to see things in all different views. The more i pour myself to know God's wants in my life has greatly bless me in His ways.

The verse that has kept me on track is Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and he shall direct your path" and Mark 5: 25-38 is about the woman who had internal bleeding and had amazing faith to be healed.

This two verses has been my core foundation and kept me forward and humbling myself to learn more from God. This journey was tough and easy at times.

God i love you with all my all. I see you as my King, my Savior, my Friend, and my Lover.

Jesus Christ loves you. Till next post smile.

Twenty Plus Years Already

Hey Hey,

Today is my birthday. I would like to reveal my birthday and everything. But the internet has become such a dangerous place.

Anyway, it has been amazing journey for me this many many years. Especially, the time i knew with God. I don't know how to explain how much God has change my life. Knowing Jesus Christ as my God and Savior from my sin has greatly reinvent my life.

Today, i want to wish that everyone in the world who have the excess to the internet to take the time to read the Bible.

I read this Bible and show God's love that i needed in my life.

here is a great start for you to know about God that cares for you.

John 3:16-17

So make my day.

change your life

Jesus Christ loves you.

The Positive Remake Creation

Ho,

I have another two months to go before I fly home. I'm excited to know that I'll be heading back soon. However, I have to remain compose about my emotion to stay focus with studies. Finish strong. More Glory to God.

Anyway, i have been doing well. God has reveal himself so evidently that i'm just at his mercy to worship with my all. Time after time God has help me in my total life.

So two more months. Will tell more details when the day i'll be coming back. Till then many loves.

The Cubes of Colors

Hi,

Spring break. My shadow day to day has become my best friend. Resting my head on the bed seeing my shadow making faces at me. Talking to myself have become so easy. Running thoughts just jogging through and though.

The times have change. The sky above have change into bright blue with pockets of white. A touch of rain and wind comes comes to let the seeds travel nice and far. Spring time is around. Summer is knocking on Springs door.

The sun still hides behind the clouds. Spring is not letting in Summer yet. The hot brisk do still leaks in and out.

Seeing myself in the shower time to time. Hearing singing in the bathroom walls. Oldies like the good old days. How much could I remember oldies.

The spaces in my room are filled with melody from the electronic device. "Smoke Gets In Your Eyes" was filling it. The smooth tones of music create a change of emotion in myself. Loneness i feel.

The window I see from my window. Empty. People have left from break. Yet to see them another week. Roaming outside is just void. The birds of the air have gone too. Only me that is left with my shadow.

A great time i had with my shadow. We played. We singed. We celebrate. We became buddies. Nothing could separate us. Romantic we are.

Today. Today. Today. Spring break have come to a close. Cars of different colors return to their usual spaces. Laughing and friendship are reunited. Untold tales of each person being share to fill the happiness in the time.

I'm happy as ever. I got to know myself better. A newer man I become. A friendship that i would know last for eternally. My love for Christ has grown to show that he is so real. so real.

Jesus Christ loves you.

Time Will Tell

Hey,

Have you wonder in your mind the things you done in life that are good and bad. Like how much the good in you feels like and the bad feels so rotten.

to tell you that is your conscious speaking in which it is the Holy Spirit in you.

In beginning of beginning when God created everything and through history. God has not given the Holy Spirit till Jesus Christ die on the cross. During this time, people really on their conscious. (i know i'm stirring up some commotion.)

Anyway, i just want to say is that God is in your life even you don't accept Him or you do. Christianity is not a religion. In fact, it is a relationship. You can come to Him as your Father or friend or lover.

This Jesus Christ guy came down as a God to become a perfect man (born from a virgin) to save the human race. He help us (everyone past present future) to be clean from sin. It is the only matter of you accepting Jesus Christ as your Savior. I promise you your life would not be the same.

So what do you say?

Jesus Christ loves you.

In Collapsing World

Hey,

This world is in great danger in destroying itself.

People

come

back

to

the Bible

way.

These disasters are

just

early

warnings

that are

coming

of a

great

disaster

I do not foresee the future

but

the Bible

tells

me

so.

Jesus Christ loves you.

He wants

you

with Him

Pick a Bible

learn

more

of

Him.

People

don't be full of yourself

come back

come back

Jesus Christ loves you

Hidden Taste Require

Hey,

This blog has been on and off too much.

Anyway,

My life here in US has been going pretty alright.

Learning

a lot from classes

like

Bible and Kines.

I can say that God has been really faithful to me.

He has really carried me through the years with His power to guide

me in

studies

relationship with him

and

people.

Me coming to 22 soon in this month

Looking back at my life

I can say

I have been through a lot

so much

history to be

told

and

untold

However

all this would not work

without

God's grace

evident

in

my

Life.

Do you have Jesus Christ in your Life?

Get a Bible

He loves you before you were born

He created

the

world (earth)

for

you and me

John 3:16-17

Jesus loves you.

My Testimony

Hey world,

I want to share to you all in how I became a Christian.

I grew up in a Christian home. My father especially is the head of the church as Senior Pastor. So I grew up thinking that I was a Christian. But that was not the case. At the same time, I did not like being a Christian. The reason was that every time I was around my fellow Christian people I was being pressure by them. I was being pressure because people presume that I would be like my dad. I did not like growing up at all. I did not want one thing to do with Church. All my life I felt alone. I did not have real friends. The day I became a Christian was something real special. The experience totally change my life whole. I had a real friend that help me know Jesus Christ. The portion of scripture that caught my life and attention was this, John 3:16-17, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believe in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved." From that scripture I was amaze. Someone actually died for me, so I won't be condemn. All this time I thought I was a Christian because I was being a good person. Me being a good person did not fill the loneliness in me. I had no inner peace in me. Until I readied some more verses. I continue reading another verse and it hit me, John 14:27, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives." From that I just had to give my life to Jesus Christ. For someone to die for me because he loves me, is totally worth the try to know him so I can receive the peace that I want in my life.

From that moment, my life has never been the same. Having this relationship with Jesus Christ is awesome and it's a journey.

I hope this testimony would be helpful to you.

Love,

What's Going On

Hey,

My semester is pretty alright. I lost track a little bit because been thinking about home like crazy. Recently, I have been thinking of home so much. You guys created a great impact in my life that I can say "I'm truly bless." Looking through the years with my fellow CBCians from uncles and aunts to youth to kids. Just simply "wow"

I thought of you guys that I took my eyes of the ball in my studies.

These days I just not sure what to write anymore. My week is just very normal. I just do the same thing each day.

sleep then bath then breakfast then class then convo then lunch then class then homework/studies then dinner then gym then devo then sleep.

I'll think of topics to write in the future.

Anyway, till then nighty night.

love,

The Count Down.

Hey,

I have realize that I have been here for two Christmas, three New Years and three Chinese New Year. Amazing, I still feel that I'm still dreaming. I can remember my journey to get everything in order to come here to study. The many cries I had before coming here. It's just many wow over over again each year.

This would be my third year here. I believe that I have grown so much spiritually. The foundation that Liberty gave have shaken my previous foundation and rebuild it. Just God's Work at Hand.

I wish I could see the end of this finishing line. I really want to move on in Life but I want to continue to study too.

I can plan so much but I wish God's guidance is ever evident in my Life.

Anyway, do continue to keep me in your prayers. Pray for my well-being here: physically, mentally and spiritually. Pray for me financially that God would just pour in more like scholarships and jobs. Pray for God's guidance that whether He would want me to have double major.

Alright, catch me later. (I really want to do this everyday) but for now every week.

Love,

Sunday Wishes

Hey,

Wishing you guys a happy Sunday. Hope you guys went to church. Listen to what has to say about God and convict your heart to improve yourself and the relationship with God.

I'm praying for you guys.

Love,

What Am I Remembered For?

Hey,

It has been two weeks since school started. The classes this year for me is rather slightly easier than last semester. I think I have two or three classes in a bag. Just do pray for me to be focus and discipline to study hard and do the work hard.

On the other hand, I have been rewarded into the dean's list twice in a role. I'm really happy for myself but all to glory to God for guiding me and helping everyday. I believe He will help me this year too.

(it would look nice on my certificate).

Anyway, this semester for me has been rather smooth for me. I'm beginning to understand American culture better. Thanks to Uncle Hong Teck for sharing his thoughts and teaching me. I feel that I'm begin fit in better with my friends here. It is like they understand me and visa versa.

My classes this semester seems more for me to understand the scripture better. I'm taking this theology class that explains a lot of things that many of us questions. Also, I'm taking another class that explains the time of creation or creation studies. And another class that deals with Church history.

It is like a whole new light for understanding God and His movement through history has filled me spiritually and renew my faith in Him. God is good.

_____________________________________________________

I want to share thought that's have been in my mind for very long time.

It is "how am I remembered as?"

It seems that many people remember me as the person that organize basketball or the OCD person that arrange chairs in church and deals with the small things in the church.

All that is good. And I realize that these things have so little of God in them. I wish that people would remember as the person that help change people's life by leading them to understand God better. Or helping people grow in their relationship with God.

Which means I have fail as a leader to equip people I know to building them up as powerful people for Christ.

I organize basketball not because I like basketball and want to play. I do it because I want to bring my brothers in Christ to edify each other. To spend time together as one big family. Enjoying each other company. If this does not happen then I have failed.

I do the little things in church not because I want to do it but because It's my service to others. I do it because I love God so much that I want the little things and the big things to glorify him.

If this things I do doesn't show God in it than i have failed.

Even the Word that I prepared to share to others does not convey in the person's life. I have failed to preach God's Word to others.

How can I lead people if people do not see Christ in me. I'm no better than a Pharisee or a legalistic leader.

I wish that I'm remembered as a person who do those things because God was evident in me that would help others to grow in the Lord and serve Him too.

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That's just my thought. I pray for each of you everyday that you become follows of Christ. I pray that my church will transform and restructured to be in line with God's Will.

I wish that CBC would come out of the stage of edifying. And move to the stage of equipping. I sick that not many are willing to learn the scripture. To memories, to learn theology. We think that prayer alone will do many things for us. Yes, prayer is important but without action is faithless.

Why do we run away for learning more about God? Sunday church service does so little. Devotion does so little. Where is the Bible studies? Where is the passion to crave for God's knowledge? The willingness to be mentored?

If we can't come out of the stage of edifying. It just saddens me. My prayer for the church is that you start loving God. If you love Him, you want to grow your relationship.

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I hope to continue to blog. So till next time. Bye Bye

Sincerely,

The Revival in One's Heart.

Hey,

I am still in PA for another one more week before I go back to school. My winter break is good. Staying with my friend that lives near New Jersey which is also near New York.

I wanted to go to New York this week about some events turn up and interrupted my plans. The turn out is that I might just go to New York during my school break (Easter break).

Anyway, PA here is really cold. It snows maybe twice a week.

In this time, I have learn to grow more in my relationship with God. I can sense that God is molding me into the man He wants me to be. The process in God is molding me is hard; yet, it nourishing.

It's that feeling when you read the Word of God, the pages just lite up. A new revelation, wisdom, truth.

Oh I went to a youth camp here. I went together with my friend to his church. I dare say that the youth are not like how our CBC youth are. I miss you guys a lot. The youth here are more rougher, don't-care-attitude. However, their worship songs are nice but the youth like no passion to worship.

I had some two videos of it on facebook. Hope you guys can check it out. The songs are unique. =)

Anyway, i can't wait to go back to school. Ready to learn.

love,

New Step Way

Happy New Year Everyone. 2011.

It is truly amazing how the year past really fast. 2010 has it's moments and remembrances. The thought that always in my head is study better.

In my end of 2010, I was with Uncle Hong Teck and family and with Zach and Lyn in Penn State. I was mostly spending time with Uncle Hong Teck. Reason?

He wanted me to see spiritual things in a different way. That past few days with him has greatly bless me with such wisdom. That I thank God for it.

Uncle Hong Teck was challenging me to become a better spiritual leader and person.

I really would like you guys to do a small exercise with me this whole new year. Have three goals that you want to improve yourself or spiritually. It is nice to have a long list but tell me are you really going to do all that? I say for sure "no you won't even do maybe half of it"

I think three goals this year is a nice number and is easy to be accountable for too. Imagine with me, every year you do three goals and you are constant in the end of ten years. You have mastered yourself or spiritually in 30 things or attitude or character or spiritually.

This is just something for you and me.

here are my three things

1. improve my studies (better grades)

2. learn to build relationships better

3. stronger foundation in the Word.

simple right? Yours doesn't need to be like mine. It can be something easy for you to be accountable for. Just take the time to sit down and ask yourself in what area in your life you need most improvement. To build yourself to becoming a excellence follower of Christ.

I'll leave you guys with that thought.

till then nighty night.

God loves you.

I love you guys back home too.