It Got to Me Softly

Hey readers,

Studies got the best of me. I have become a slave to it. My time is surrounded by it. The call of study is so tempting. I cannot run away from studies. It needs me as i too need it.
The books filled with knowledge messages my mind to the fullest. i cannot help myself but have knowledge. Everything is a past to me.
I do not know how to speak no more except to study.
The voice calls me day and night. Await me to hold it close to feel the beating heart.

My eyes have been glued to the letters in each book. Making sure i spell rightly the word in each class. I cannot do anything else. It does not allow me too. The world is in my past. A slave i have become. What i have done to myself. Surrounded by this temptation i cannot take no more.
I cannot escape from it. My future depends on it. What must I do?
My heart cannot feel no more. The love of my life has disappear like a paper cut. I cannot run. I cannot hide. I cannot fight.
What must I do?

Studies have won the battle of my heart. Buried in the books that tempt me. Each words are binding to my hand and feet. Slows me down in each step i take move away for it.
What must I do?

i see my hands no more. i write on myself in order feel again. Letters i recognize that use to be life to me. Each day i remind myself Life goes on.
What must I do?

Papers to write. Names to remember. Pages to read. Knowledge to know. I cannot handle no more. A slave i become. There's no rest. There's no love in books.
I do not remember myself no more.
What i have become i do not see.
Tears roll down my cheek each hour.
Feelings i do not understand no more.

How to live again?
What is love?
What is joy?
What is me?
Is this depression i see?
It cannot be...

Studies Studies you got me. Reading has become me. Knowledge has become a memory.

I have to get back to books. It lures me into it. I cannot fight it. Prayer i seek. Help!!!