In Hope for Love

Hey,

Monday. School. Study. Stress.

I have been under the study flu. Studying like crazy. I'm not so on top of things but not slacking. It is just the amount of things coming up before spring break that's taking the toll.

Just have been into studying much and it's taking a toll with me. Do pray for me.

Besides study stuff, my school has just announces that the Fray is coming to my school to do a live concert. Oh yea...you heard me. The Fray. When everyone heard that the Fray is coming. There was a huge ball of screams and claps and people standing up going crazy about the Fray. Man, they are coming in April.

I'm quite excited to hear them. It will be awesome.

Thinking about it all day today. haha. opps...focus Joel.

Anyway, i got to go. I have to prepare my English paper and some other studies too. So till then nighty night.

Geek,

Nearing the End of Beginnings.

Hey,

Sunday. Church.

Online church was seems a little weird. Looking through a screen and worshiping God can't get any weirder. Nevertheless, it was good.

I went by my friend's dorm to do my laundry and play some MW2. hehe. Me and my friend did some maggi mee goreng. It was quite close to the real deal. Oh how i miss Sliva and Suku. I think i will be ordering everyday of that went i get back.

Me and my friend just brought some instant noodles, dry them up, put some eggs together, sauce and cook it up.

Now, i'm doing some studying and getting ready for school. Do pray for me.

Pray that i have a mind of focus for studies, good health, deeper relationship with God. I thing that is all.

Spring break is around the corner. And my birthday is also in the bend. Man, i don't get to celebrate at home.

I cannot believe missing two years of Christmas celebration (presents), Chinese New Year (Ang Pau) and my birthday (presents). i feel really lonely.

Anyway, catch me around till then nighty night.

Middle,

Dominatrix

Hi,

Saturday. Basketball.

I did not really enjoy my basketball time. I did play well at all. Not one bit. I was frustrated with my game. i did not like the results, so i stay back to work on my shot. Really work on my shot. I played till like 3pm.

Went for lunch.

And i mostly stay in my room. Watching several anime and movies and Heroes.

I cannot wait for GG to come back on TV. March 8

Anyway, i got to sleep. Tomorrow church and some school work. Till then nighty night.

Matrix,

Let the Shots Flow like a River.

Hey,

I'm not going to write another lengthy weird story about me waking up and going to school and so on. It was fun though. Hope you guys enjoy a little adventure.

Anyway, Friday. The day everyone enjoys and love it. My classes went quite smooth. I'm sought of on top of things. My English research paper is taking the most toll on me. But i'm fighting through.

Aside from school, i went to play basketball today. Just to clear my head. Or release stress levels. Oh it was so worth it. My shots were knocking down like drinking water. Wave after wave. Just easy 3 pointers and 2 pointers. Love.

Nothing much happen today. Besides school and basketball. My life has been quite good. Spiritual walk is improving. Relationship still single.

I got nothing else to tell you guys about me. Well i guess this shall be my time to say good night.

See next post another time.

Oh,

Critic the Human Belly-Button

Hey,

Wondering around in the ocean of deep sleep. Flying on my magical carpet to lands that is rich is love. In the mist of landing my crafted design carpet, I enter into black hole. Zooming out as fast can blink my eye. Screams. I hear so loud as I exit in my fantasy world. My eyes scanning the room with eyes not totally open. I was up before I can know it. Something has woken me up i thought to myself. I look down on a blinking light that tries to get my attention like a puppy needs a good massage.
I reach for it. It telling me to snooze or stop it. Flashes of lighting and sounds of thunder in front of me. My thumb move towards the stop button to put the hand-phone to rest. I did not notice my thumb has stop it because i have went to wonderland already.

My dream appear to me. Shaking me up. There was a sudden drop from a very high place that i fell to me stomach on the floor. The indication for me to get ready.
I could not tell from left and right. My senses are like ecstasy. Everything seems like a dance. Oh my i thought. How beautiful girls i'm with. I must be dreaming again.
Nah! i was not.
I saw shape of hearts flying around me. The hearts having sweet aroma. I smell good. Oh how i swirl around my lovely environment. Could this be heaven? No it must not, dreaming again?
A furry like creature cloth me at the end of my dream-like-love-world. It gave me security.

I was in a trance. The world around me surround with smiley faces smiling at me. The clouds. The sun. The grass. The people. Oh my am i really dreaming. Every where i walk was filled with smiles. The journey was ended as i saw a giant blue gentle unicorn. The unicorn told me to ride with it. We went places. Places that man could not travel go. It was great. Many fantasies were real.

Me and the mighty unicorn stop at this place. Big and tall. Strong and powerful. This place is for greatness people. People that hold great ability. The unicorn told me with a whisper to my ear saying it's my time to leave you, Joel. I'll come back went the time is right. I enter into this magical kingdom. Filled with many rooms. Yes, filled with unique people. People from all races, kind and creature.

Truly a place to master a skill or ability.

I made through one of the rooms. In this room, i sat to understand the history of music and how great the influences it has.

The hours past by and much knowledge i gain. Gain greatly to know a period of history.

Scare i was for sure. But the knowledge i gain is powerful. There was much learning in this time.

The hours past. It past vastly.

I could not tell time. I only know the colors of the day. It was dark blue the sky told me.

My friend has return to get me home. Home i shall go. I ride like the wind with the great blue unicorn. Our journey was uniquely enjoyable. Enjoyable that it gave me a extra smile.

There was a different to my walk. My pace seems to be happy one. Happy it was to lead me back to where i should lay my head once again.

All that went away as i hold the door knob to my room. My room. Room is my rest. Rest i shall go. Go to the shower i must first do. Do i shall do. So clean i was that made me ready to rest. Rest was worth it. It will get me ready for tomorrow. Tomorrow new beginnings for me. Me to become a great learner. Learner to become champions of Christ. Christ that lives in me. I shall represent to all the world. World will know of this person that lives in me. I will shine off His Glory. Glory which is to bright that penetrate the hearts of men.

This was no dream. No dream. To real. To real it was.

Love,

Person Forgotten Completely

Hey,

The still fast pace of the blades of the fan whistles in the air of my room. The wind cause by the fan flows swiftly around my bed where i lay asleep. Unsure whether i was awake or sleep. I could not seem to be opening my eyes soon. I thought to myself when is ringing of my device even going to go off. Hours past by and no beat sounded to awake me except the fan whistles through the air.

I shift around my bed to feel in sleep i am. I peep through my eye lids to see what is happening around me. Total silent it was. No sound from my befriended roommate who is fast asleep. Nothing in the world would wake him up maybe the scream of conscience could get him up. It did not work it only cause him to go into deeper sleep.

The room of my room feel like it was shrinking. Feeling the walls closing in me because i can feel the cold wooden walls touching my soft skin of my body. I quickly evade the cold and come back to my hot warm blanket of mine. Ah...there goes the sounds of an alarm going off. It was fast pace tone that shouted to my ears. Crying to me to wake up. The beam of light told me the direction of the device is at. I reach for it as if i was tiger pounding on it's prey. I took it in to silent my prey and let it's cry be no more.

The figures on my device says 6:55 am. I stare at it down wishing it to turn back time to give me another round of wonderful sleep. But time spoke to me like a voice from a seductive women to stand on my feet and make ready for things ahead. I move to the corner of my bed in a sitting down position. Darkness was looking at me straight in my face. Eye to Eye. My mind struggling to direct me to the nearest water hole.

My feet carry me step by step moving forward. Little by Little taking ground. My enemy is going down down down. I enter the gates of fountains. i lay myself down to relief myself of what was in me.

Yellow was the color i see. Yet i see it no more as the clear color erase the yellow no more. I step into the mansion of beautiful springs. My world was filled with the wonders of showers covering me up with oceanic perfume. The more i soak myself in this spring, i felt more energetic. i was like lifted up into heaven. Swimming with the angles as they fly with me.

All that had to end. Time call to me again. Telling me i was a pocket full of sunshine already. And it need to take me away to my secret place.

I wipe clear of the water that purify me. I stretch myself to let my cloths to clothed me. Silent as i do things. My friendly roommate is still fast asleep. Not knowing what experiences throughout the entire time.

I journey in the maze of my room to the exit to the world outside. So scary. So exciting. Time ticking away. I call to arms ready to do battle with the day. It's 7:13am. I fight with my body to tell that i'm not hungry. i look at my surrounding as i walk through this dusty morning. People in their faces, not a smile can be seen. On mine too. I was not happy with it.

i hop on this blue chariot. It races with time to deliver me to my hiding place. How fast it went was not imaginable.

My destination was at hand. 7:30am. It showed on my device. My day was starting. My classes seem so short. On a single thought came into me during my time in class. My attention was more towards home. Home where everything happen. Oh how much i miss the familiar faces. Wishing to know the faces in how they are.

In the end, I was clouded with white material at hand. My hand scribbling away notes. The thought came to me telling me how long i was away. 8 months. It is close to a mother ready to give birth the next month.

I was ready to go home. Wanting to go home. I cannot take this no more. Thoughts running through my head. Running through my head. i rush back home with the blue chariot. Racing me home so i rest my tired body. Me telling me to rest soon. The body been up to long. 10 hours has been. My heart beat races with me to my room. I found dear rest with such ease. The comfort of my space. How soft and warm it provide. My love. My sleep. Waiting for another day to go by. Counting down the hours to the next morning. Oh sleep. Sleep i shall. i shall.

Home i want to be. Home.

iam,

Put it On the Books for Record.

Hey,

Tuesday. It was quite a day. Music exam was tough. I didn't like it one bit. Well i still guess that i did pretty well.

I got back for class and i went back to bed. I had a late lunch. Then i did some pre-warm-up basketball session. I like the session. It gave me some new confidence that i can shoot the ball really well.

My intermural game tonight was really good. I did pretty well. Even though the game was tight. I score a new career high (in this school, don't compare to my highschool years) 12 points, 4 rebounds and 1 steal. Yea...i'm inch in the game. I'm slowly gaining the trust of my teammates.

Alright, later in the night. Prayer group meeting was good. They are slowly warming up to me and we are gaining some comfort among my members.

Okay now i have to really go. I got to study and then sleep early. Tomorrow is a long day. Till then nighty night.

Nail,

Come Back Shot...

Hi,

Monday. School was usual. Normal. I got a big English paper coming up. Really do not like it.

Anyway, spring break is coming around the corner. The weather here is improving a little. I think there is going to be one more snow shower soon in February and a little in March. By mid March, the weather would be sweet.

Besides classes, I have been doing great. Even though there is tons of school stuff to do. I'm making sure i'm keeping up with things. I have become a Prayer Leader here, if many of you do not know already (it is like a cell group leader). Being a Pray Leader here is not as easy than being a leader back home. There is like Prayer Leader exams to take and books to read and to write about what the book speak to you and weekly meetings to make sure we Prayer Leaders stay Spiritually fit.

All this is totally great. I guess God is taking me to another level in His ministry and preparing the journey for me.

Me, physically, i'm very healthy. Playing in the school intermurals is pleasing. Nearly every day i have to play basketball. Well there goes my gym session.

I don't know what else to tell you about me. Maybe i just need to tell you guys that i miss home the most. Friends, close friends, friends, more friends, food friends, date friends, family friends, unique friends, and of course family and can never forget, Church. Yet, the most thing is miss is Malaysian food. I got to put up my Malaysian food list again.

Okay, i got to really go now. Need to study and type my paper. Till then nighty night.

Triple,